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Chapter 21

AN-Hey, sorry for the super late update, went on vacation with my family and haven't had time to write lately. I've just been doing a couple sentences in between some activities. Also; Thank you so much for the 2 thousand reads!! It's so crazy for me to even imagine that many people reading what I wrote! Stay strong CimFam!

Christina's POV

I watch Lauren walk out of the doors. I want to follow her, but I just can't make myself get out of my chair. She is probably just getting some air. I can't get the image of Lisa's face and neck out of my head, I see the tube in her throat and the bruises on her neck every time I close my eyes. I see her hanging again, and remember the heart stopping terror I felt when I saw her. I don't even want to think about what would have happened if I hadn't found her.  It makes me feel sick.

She has to wake up. She just has to. I don't know what we will do without her. Who will help us set up our harmonies? Who is going to remind us all of the important things? Who is going to randomly ask deep questions during car rides? Who's going to help Lauren through her anxiety? We can't function without her. It kills me to think that she doesn't realize that. I just wish I could talk to her, tell her I love her, tell her that she is strong. I hope I can get the chance to help her through this. None of us will be okay if she dies.

What would we say to Joey? He's so young, he wouldn't understand. How would we tell the CimFam? So many look up to Lisa, what would they think if she is gone? Speaking of that, no one has updated the CimFam, who must be freaking out after seeing that video and then getting no response. I guess I should tweet something, but I don't want to invade Lisa's privacy. How are we supposed to deal with the people that saw Lisa's video? I know Kath took it down, but so many people saw it. Maybe I'll just make a quick tweet. I get on my phone and then tweet out a quick message; "Hey guys, this is a difficult time for the Cimorelli family right now. I would like to inform you all that Lisa is alive, and I will try my best to keep you updated. Please, pray for us in this hard time, especially for Lisa. Love you all!"

It was kind of a weird tweet for me, but I had to say something. I stare at the page as many people comment their relief and say they are praying for her. I notice that Amy retweeted it, and nod to her. We all sit in tense silence for a few minutes. I see Lauren come back in and sit down. She looks much calmer. I guess the air helped her then.  I look over to see my mom sitting in a chair with a look of absolute dread on her face. Amy is sitting beside, holding her hand, with her head on Mom's shoulder.

Lauren is sitting a little farther away, she has her knees pulled up to her chest, but isn't crying anymore, she looks at her phone and I see her smile a tiny bit before seeming to text someone. Then, she goes back to staring forlornly at the doors to the waiting room. I'm glad she has a friend to support her.

The doors open then, Katherine and Dani walk in, Kath sitting beside Amy, with Dani heading over to where Lauren was. We all sit in silence for a little while, until a nurse walks over and tells us that we should go home and come back in the morning. My mom refuses to leave, and says she will stay with Lisa. The nurse just nods like she expected it, she says that she will have a blanket and pillow brought to Lisa's room. Lauren looks reluctant to leave until Amy reassures her that we will be back right away tomorrow morning. Katherine asks the nurse to call her if Lisa's condition changes. We wait a little while longer to listen to the nurse, who has started explaining some things to Mom.

"Lisa will have restraints on, because we don't want her to pull out the breathing tube or her IV when she wakes up. She is also restrained because of the reason she was brought in, and once awake and sufficiently healed she will be put under a 72 hour psychological evaluation. Depending on the results, she may be either released, given a prescription, committed to an inpatient program, or a combination of those. I would suggest that someone look through her room a bit, see if she left a note of some sort that may help explain her current mental state. We have also seen evidence of self harm, you may want to look through her bathroom and bedroom for any sharp objects she may have used and throw them away. I can get you to her room now Mrs. Cimorelli."

We all stare after them as they walk away, a little shocked at all the information we just got. We all seem to slump at once, and head out to the parking lot to find our cars. I get in with Amy, while Katherine drives Dani and Lauren home.

As soon as we get home I walk up to Lisa's room and look around, it doesn't take long to find a row of boxes and some letters. I see one with my name on it, and hesitantly reach for it. I open it and reach for the letter on top, opening it and starting to read.

TO BE CONTINUED

Heh...sorry for the cliffie, couldn't help it... I'll see what I can do about getting an update out in the next few days.