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Chapter 32

AN-...Sorry? Thanks for all the votes and reads, it's literally amazing. Anyway, I'm thinking of starting a new story soon so I have something to work on when this story stumps me. If that sounds good, let me know and I'll start working on it! Also, if reading about an anxiety attack triggers you, please skip Kath's POV, you won't miss much of the plot.

Katherine's POV
We get home from the hospital and everyone goes off to do their own thing. Amy goes to the living room and Christina heads upstairs to her room. It's weird, the house feels so empty and quiet without Lisa here. I still remember the times when we would always hear her singing, playing piano, and just being goofy.

For the past three months, there has been none of that. I don't know how we didn't know something was seriously wrong sooner. She wasn't acting like herself. She wasn't eating. She was pushing us all away, and it is so obvious to me now.

I make my way up to my room and shut the door, flopping on to my bed and laying there for a second. Every time I close my eyes the image of Lisa laying in Christina's arms, barely breathing, pops into my brain. I hear the agonizing sounds of my family as they learn what Lisa had done to herself, the heartbreaking screams from Lisa when she woke up restrained at the hospital. It is all just too much.

My breathing comes faster as the images don't stop. The hate comments, the video that Lisa put up, the bags under my little sister's eyes. Soon, my heart is pounding and tears are flowing as I desperately work to take a breath. I drop my head into a pillow and pull it tight to my face as I scream into it.

After a few lifetimes, I pull my head up and weakly gasp for air, my throat feeling sore from all of my screaming. I roll over and lay back against my headboard, my heart still racing as I struggle for each breath. Dots dance in my eyes from the lack of oxygen, and tears fall down my cheeks as I finally get through the attack. I glance at the clock on my wall, and forty minutes have passed since we got home.

I had been expecting an attack all day, and I'm glad that it happened when I was home instead of at the hospital. I weakly reach up and wipe my eyes, grabbing tissues from my nightstand. I drink a little water from my water bottle and just sit back to wait for my heart to slow down.

Amy's POV

We get home and I immediately go to the couch and dial one of my friends. I vaguely register Christina and Katherine going upstairs as my friend answers.
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Amy: Kiera?

Kiera(aka Rageboss): Ames? Hi! How's life?

A: Haven't you heard anything?

K: Heard anything about what?

A: Lisa? It's all over social media Kiera

K: Amy, you know I deleted all of my accounts. What about Lisa? Is she okay?

A: Oh, I just figured someone would have told you. I'm so sorry. Lisa isn't okay...

K: What?! How not okay? I know we had a fight a few weeks ago but I still care about her. What's going on Amy?

A: Lisa...(takes deep breath) Lisa tried to kill herself.

K: She what? I can't have heard you right. Lisa was okay. A little tired, maybe a little moody, but she was okay!

A: I'm sorry, she hasn't been okay for a while. None of us saw it. She really did try to commit suicide. She posted a video beforehand, and accidentally left the rope in the background hanging from the ceiling. The Fans saw it and went crazy, they messaged all of us and Christina must have seen it in time. I don't know exactly what happened, but Lisa almost broke her neck, and her windpipe was almost completely crushed...

K: Oh my god...How is she?

A: Not great, she's awake but she looks so skinny. The bruises around her neck are horrible. She can't even speak, let alone sing. And Kiera...her arms are covered in self harm scars.

K: Oh my...Amy I'm so sorry. What can I do? Are you doing okay with this? God, that's a stupid question. How can I help?

A: Hey, it's okay. I'm just glad you answered my call. I'm not okay, but I'm about as good as I can be right now. It's okay Kiera, seriously. You don't need to do anything.

K: Amy, it's okay to be upset.  Do you girls need anything? Food, snacks, coffee, anything at all, you name it and I'll get it for you okay.

A: It's okay Kiera, I don't think any of us could eat right now anyway. All we really need is for Lisa to be okay...(starts sobbing)

K: Amy? Amy, hey, it's okay. It's gonna be okay. The doctors will take good care of her. She'll be alright. Everything is gonna be okay. You will all be okay.

A: (Calms down after a few minutes with Kiera saying similar things) Thank you, I needed that.

K: Hey, what are friends for. You sure you don't need anything? Even if it's just a hug, I swear I'll drive over there.

A: It's okay, I should probably check on Chris and Kath anyway. Bye Kiera

K: Bye Amy, stay strong.
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