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Chapter 12

AN-Here is Lauren's letter! This one was a bit harder to write. Anyway, if your still reading...Thank you!!! This is my first try at a long story, and I appreciate you taking the time to read it!

Lauren's Letter
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Dear Lauren,

I'm sorry. I am so so sorry. I have been so mean to you these last few months, you didn't deserve that. It was for your own good, but I know it was wrong. I don't deserve you. I am sorry for pushing you away. I didn't want to hurt you...Remember when I was 14 and you were 9, and we were at the park? We were on the swings, and some girls from my neighborhood came up and called me names, and you stood up and yelled at them to shut up? I was so proud of you, and you made me feel like I wasn't alone. I'll never forget that! No one else has ever done that for me, and even though you were only 9, that day you were my hero. I want you to remember that you are strong, beautiful, smart, and the best person on this earth. Don't ever let anyone treat you differently. And don't spend too long mourning me, I'm not worth it. You need to get on with life. And don't you girls dare give up the band. Katherine has a book of songs that I wrote with you girls in mind. I would love it if you guys could sing some of them. You will always be my Ladybug, and I'll see you again someday. Included in this box is some of my old clothes and stuffed animals, plus one Journal I wanted you to have. Katherine and Amy have the rest of them, if you want to look through them. So, I guess this is goodbye. You'll be okay Lo, I promise. This is not your fault, only mine. Don't ever blame yourself for the things I do. I just can't do this anymore, everyone will be much better off without me. Goodbye Lauren. I love you.

Love,
Lisa
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