Life is Life

Make Me Feel

We were walking to my house I was subtly giving him directions with my hand.
You see I know sadness, I know pain and I know how much it changes you.

I did have a brother. He was older than me and it seems no one remembers him. My family we keep things to ourselves we don't talk, it's frustrating but there is nothing I'm going to do to change it.

I was around 11 when he died, he was my best friend my brother and we really did do everything together despite the age difference he was 19 when he died but he was a kid at heart.

He taught me so much and I still to this day I do things he used to do. It's subconscious and yet I still think about what I just did after I do it.

I never talk about him because I don't want to remember him. It hurts more saying I have a dead brother than saying I'm an only child.
How wrong does that sound? Pretty bad right but even my parents don't say anything.

Deidara. I haven't heard that name in so long. I can't even remember the last time I said his name.

I don't want to think about him or the past or the pain I'm feeling. I want to forget about it all.

Sasuke and I turned into the driveway the house was dark everything was off. My grandma is working over night she has a big surgery and my mom and dad are both working they've been working over time a lot more now.
Sasuke and I silently walked into the house I grabbed Sasukes hand and guided him upstairs in the dark house. I know this house like the back of my hand.

I opened my door and turned on the light switch on the wall. I sat on my bed Sasuke shut the door and stood by it.

"Who is Deidara?" Sasuke asked.

Deidara. There it is. It's almost nice hearing the name. It's funny how when he died everyone just stopped talking about him.

It's like everyone forgot I had a brother, even the teachers I had when I finished a grade they never mentioned him, I don't think I ever got a sorry for your loss.

It's almost like I created Deidara and no one could ever see him. But I didn't, is it weird that I used to have to tell myself that because no one ever talked about him.
We have pictures where did they all go? We have his art where is it? If I look in the yearbooks at school I'll see him.

"Sasuke" I looked at him and stood up. This seems like one of my bad ideas. But I want this, I want something that won't make me feel this pain. I want, him.

I stepped closer and closer until I was right next to him. I put my hand on his chest and stood there.

I looked at him his eyes are so beautiful and his hair, I love it.
I step on my toes and move my face closer to his and stood there. My lips brushing up against his, I put my hand in his hair, he looked at me his breathing becoming more erotic. I smiled against his lips and pulled on his hair.

Sasuke looked me in the eyes before closing the gap and kissing me. It wasn't a soft kiss it was filled with lust and need.

He pulled me closer his hands around my waist. I don't know what's gotten into me but I just want to do this. I jumped on him wrapping my legs around him. His tongue was in my mouth and I loved it.

He walked away from the door and dropped me on the bed, he was hovering over me his lips still connected to mine but his hands finding there way all over my body. I love his touch I crave it, he broke away from my lips and started kissing and biting my neck. I let out a moan I've never felt something like this before.

Sasukes hands found there way under my shirt and my hands did the same. He tugged off my shirt and took off his our chests were touching each other, skin on skin. I feel like this is the time you would stop, but I just don't want to.
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Sasuke brought his hand up and moved a piece of stray hair from my sweaty face.

"I can't believe we did that"

Sasuke moved closer to me and kissed my lips, I don't think I'll ever get over how Sasuke tastes or how much I just want to kiss him every second of the day.

I closed my eyes as we both pulled apart, sleep over came me before I knew it. Probably the best sleep I'll ever get in my life.

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This page is in the works because I didn't like it. And I still don't like it. Still in the works....