never letting go || lrh

Confrontation.

*2 weeks later* 

I hadn’t spoken to Aylin in what felt forever and I missed her. Ater weighing the pros and cons in my head, I decided to call her before I could regret it. 

«Hello?» She answered on second ring.

«Hi, Ay, it’s Maddie.» I said politely. This felt awkward, but it shouldn’t. 

«Oh, hey.» She sounded annoyed. 

«Can you meet me in the park in 20?» I asked.

«I don’t know, I’m kinda busy.» She replied coldly. I didn’t let that bring me down though. I had to clear everything up with her.

«Well, I’ll be waiting for you. You know where I’ll be.» I said, and hung up.

I sighed, and got up and walked to my bathroom. I turned the shower tap on, letting the water warm up. I stripped down, and once the water was scolding, I stepped in. I wet my hair, rubbed the shampoo in, and rinsed it out. I then brushed conditionner through it, and tied it in a bun on top of my head. I set a 3 minute timer on my watch, and washed my face and body, which took about a minute and a half. I stood there, water dripping off of me, as I waited for the 3 minutes to be up. I was thinking about what I was going to say to her. I had no fucking clue, but I knew I had to clear the waters. I had noticed that I was right about Luke : after hooking up, he forgot about her. I just felt bad for her, but I had warned her, and she didn’t listen. On the other hand, Ashton and I were getting very close, I spent nights at his house and him at mine. We couldn’t stay together for more than 5 minutes without it breaking into a make-out session. Yet, he didn’t force anything on me. He felt like my best friend / lover to me. I was shook from my thoughts as my watch beeped, announcing the end of the 3 minutes. I let my hair down and rinsed it out. 

I walked out of the shower, wrapped a towel me, and brushed my teeth. I dried off my body, but didn’t bother drying my hair properly. I just rubbed it with my towel, it was hot as balls outside, it would dry fast enough. I slipped on a basic white flowy tshirt, and black shorts with white flowers on them. I accessorized it quickly, and put light makeup on. I grabbed my purse and phone and walked out my house, locking it behind me. 

I made my way to the park which was 5 minutes away. I sat at mine and Ay’s favourite bench. As I waited for her to -hopefully- show up, memories came flooding back. This is where she had announced that we were going to the 5SOS concert, 3 months ago. But it felt like that had happenned a few years back, things had changed so much. This concert had changed our lives, in a good way or bad way, I couldn’t tell. I had made 3 new best friends, one of them being my current «boyfriend». But I had also fought with my best friend for the first time because of them. I had finally admitted my biggest secret to someone. I put my head in my hands as I thought of the way this random band had completely and utterly changed my life, when I heard familiar coughing. I looked up, my eyes glossy. I smiled when I saw Aylin standing in front of me. She looked tired, and that’s when I remembered she must be going through tough times with her dad being arrested and such. I looked at her, but she looked at the bench. I nodded for her to sit next to me, and she did. We stayed in awkward silence for a while.

«You look nice.» She said. It caught me off guard to say the least.

«Oh, um, thanks, you do too.» I smiled at her, but she didn’t return it. «Do you know why I wanted to talk to you?» I asked, not sure how to start the conversation.

«Nope.» She answered, not showing any kind of emotion.

«I was hurt.» I said, simply, wanting to get this dialogue over and done with.

«Why?» She snapped, turning to look at me straight in the eyes for the first time that day. 

«Because you let the boy I liked hook up with you!» I said, hurt obvious in my voice. 

«It’s more than hooking up, Maddie. I like him and he likes m-» She started.

«Don’t even go there.» I said, she looked confused. «Oh dear Ay, can’t you see? It was a one-time thing, did he actually call you up after?» I asked, getting mad. She opened her mouth to say something but then shut it, realisation creeping up on her face. I felt bad for having told he like this, but it had been going on for too long. «Did he actually show signs of liking you?» I added soffly.

«Did you just call me over to make me believe that Luke doesn’t like me?» She said, her eyes becoming wet. I didn’t like where this was heading.

«No, hon, I didn-» 

«Oh don’t you even ‘hon’ me.» She snapped, getting up. «Listen, it wasn’t easy to see you and Luke getting close when I  had feelings for him. And you knew it. That didn’t stop you, though, did it?»

«The point is he actually  liked me!» I shouted at her, but instantly regretting saying it. She looked hurt.

«Fuck you, you little bitch. Ever since the boys walked into our lives you have been nothing but useless, creating drama here and there.» She snapped, anger raising in her voice. But she was not finished yet, hell, she was only getting started. «I have listened to you for endless nights talking about how you like Luke, but there’s also Ashton, and then you talk about your new clothes, and completely ignore what I might've felt. While my dad wasphysically abusing me and my family you stood there doing nothing.» I was about to tell her wrong, but she had started talking again. «And finally, when Luke comes along and replaces you, and actually cares about me and worries about me, you come back and ruin everything for me!» I was actually getting mad that she didn’t understand that Luke didn’t give 2 shits about her. Once again she spoke up before I could open my mouth. «So Maddison, I want you to know something.» She looked me straight in the eyes. «I wish you had never been my best friend. Fuck that, I wish I had never met you. I then would have invited a real friend to the concert, and that person would have been supportive of me. You slut.» She finished. I had contained myself for the whole of her spitting at my face, but that last word was the push that sent me over the edge. My head spinned, as if I was about to faint. I saw black spots forming in my vision, I was so mad. I walked up to her until my nose was almost touching hers and pointed my finger towards her stomach.

«Don’t. Ever. Call. Me. That. Again.» I breathed heavily in her face, I could almost feel the steam coming out of my ears. 

«Or what?» She provoked.

And that’s when before I could realise what I was doing, my fist connected with her jaw. Hard. «Or that.» I said after punching her, and walked away before I could regret it.