never letting go || lrh

The big blow-out.

Ashton parked the car outside my house and we all shuffled out of the car. We walked over to my front door, it was locked. I didn’t bring a key so I rang the doorbell. A couple of seconds later, Ben opened the door, looking quite surprised. He muttered a ‘hello’ and walked back a bit, letting us in.

«Hey, aren’t you guys 5 Seconds Of Summer?» He asked after we were all inside the house and the door was closed. 

«Yeah, nice to meet you. I’m Calum, this is Ashton, Luke and Michael.» Calum said politely. He shook hands with my brother.

«Guys, this is my brother Ben. He’s 2 years older than me, so he’s a year younger than Ash and a year older than you guys.» I said pointing at Mike Luke and Cal. 

«If you don’t mind, could I speak to Maddie alone in the kitchen?» Ben asked, a smile on his face.

«Go for it, we’ll just wait here.» Mike said, also smiling politely.

I was dragged in the kitchen by my brother.

«What the hell?» He whisper-yelled.

«What? What’s wrong?» I asked genuinely confused.

«Why did you bring 4 rockstars home?» He sounded as confused as I was.

«We just came here to get ready, we were going out tonight.» I shrugged.

«You do realise you’re under-age, right?» He said, concerned.

«I know, I know..» I sighed.

«I’ll let you off the hook this time, but make sure you warn me next time you bring celebrities home, okay?» He winked at me and walked out the kitchen. I heard his voice talking to the boys.

«It was nice meeting you guys, have fun tonight. And by the way, hi Ay.» I heard the smile in his voice.  When I got in the living room, Ben was halfway up the stairs. I walked up to the boys (and Ay). 

«You guys coming?» I headed up the stairs and they followed me. As we reached my room, I opened the door and let them in. They sat down instinctively on the bed.

«Well I’m gonna go get changed, I’ll be back out now in a sec.» I smiled, grabbed an outfit I had laid out earlier in the day and made my way to the bathroom. I stripped, washed my face and moisturized. I slipped on sexy underwear and pulled a dress on. It was tight on my body, showing off my curves. I paired it with a small purse and black high heels. I got my makeup out of the way, applying foundation, eyeliner and mascara, and added hot pink lipstick to match the dress. (A/N : Outfit in the box below!) I curled my hair slightly, and put in some hairspray to make it hold nicely in place. When I was satisfied with the result, I opened the door slowly, and felt all the eyes on me. I smiled shyly as the boys were staring. 

«Stop it, you’re making me uncomfortable!» I said laughing.

«I’m sorry, it’s just you look a-maz-ing.» Ashton said, accentuating each syllable. I smiled and thanked him.

«Ay, you can take what you want from my wardrobe.» I looked at her, and she was on her way to my walk-in closet. The door closed behind her, and I took her place on the bed, crossing my legs as I did so. 

«So, what’s up?» I asked the boys. 

«Not much, I’m pumped for tonight though.» Cal said, excitedly. 

«That’s good, we’re gonna have a blast.» I presumed, a big grin on my face. 

We chatted aimlessly for about 10 minutes until Ay walked out the bathroom. She looked absolutely gorgeous, she had on one of my black bra-tops with a high waisted leopard print mini-skirt, a black purse, and very high black heels. The boys all stared in awe, because I must say, she looked sexy. I winked at her, and we all got on our way back to the car.

Ash drove us to a club a friend of theirs had recommended. Luke gave me and Ay us some fake IDs, and we pulled up in the parking lot. We all got in the club without a problem. The lights were dimmed and the party had already started. People were dancing and grinding on the dance floor, some sitting at the bar flirting, and some making out on couches. We made our way to the bar and ordered drinks to start the night off right. 

After a few drinks, we started getting tipsy and walked over to the dance floor. I grabbed Luke by the hem of his shirt and grinded against him, going up and down his body. I then looked him in the eyes, and licked my lips before crushing them against his. The kiss was strong and needy, but I didn’t mind. I slipped my tongue into his mouth, and they valsed together to the beat of whatever song was playing at that moment. I stood back, out of breath, and Luke pulled me by the hand and made his way to the back off the club. 

I followed him laughing, my drunken mind not realising what he was doing. He asked for a key to the man standing there, and we then made our way down a corridor. All the doors had numbers on them. I looked down at the key, it was number 6. Luke stopped in front of the corresponding door, put the key in the lock, and stumbled in, pulling me in as well. He locked the door behind us, and pushed me onto the bed that was awkwardly placed in the middle of the room. I lay on my back, looking at him straight in the eye. He bent down over me, and kissed me, more gently than earlier. It wasn’t as rough, but it was still needy. His hand made it’s way down my stomach and onto my thigh, resting there as I played with his hair and nibbled on his lip-ring. He moaned slightly, and I smiled against his lips. 

His hand starting tracing random shapes on my thigh, and my hand crept under his Nirvana shirt, as my fingers traced the outline of his abs. He spun us around, so it was me on top of him, and he reached to grab my bum. The sudden touch shocked me at first, but I got used to it. I felt his genitalia harden against my thigh. I shivered at the contact.

«I want you so bad!» He said after moaning as I bit his lip. That’s when it struck me. I couldn’t do this. All the memories came flooding back, and I sat up, breaking from the kiss. I shuddered at the loss of contact, but I couldn’t help myself. I stood up, pulling him with me. He had a very confused look on his face.

«Look, Luke. We’re drunk, it’s not okay for us to do this when we’re waisted, in a room that hundreds of people must have gotten down with it.» I said apologetically. He looked at me, I wasn’t able to understand what his eyes were saying. He pulled in closer.

«Maddie, baby, no-one has to know!» He said.  I pushed him away, sligtly annoyed he wasn’t getting the point. 

«It’s not about that, it’s that I want our first time to be special!» I was completely sober now, reality had hit me. But Luke was still drunk, which meant he was horny. Very horny. He walked back to me.

«Mad, the point is we’re together, and we’ll be fine.» He said. I still didn’t want to do anything, so I tried to find an excuse.

«Do you even have protection?» I asked. He pointed to the bedside table, on which was a big bowl full of condoms. I sighed.

«Okay Luke? We’re not doing it tonight, end of story.» I told him, tired. I sat back on the bed. 

«What the fuck? One minute you’re all over me, and the one after that you’re backing out?» He sounded angry.

«I’m sorry, I just can’t.» I muttered.

«Oh yeah? Tell me why.» He asked. I shivered, not knowing what to say.

«I told you, I want our first time to be special.» I tried, a cute smile on my face. I had crossed my arms in front of my chest, feeling self-concious all of a sudden.

«I don’t believe you.» He sounded sharp.

«Oh yeah? Do you really think I want to fuck you in a room where hundreds of people already have done the dirty whilst being dunk?» I snapped at him.

«I know there’s something else, just tell me!» He yelled. I was intimidated, I could feel my eyes sting. I blinked away the forming tears and started walking to the door, but he grabbed my arm.

«Tell me.» He said in a low, scary voice. That was it, that was my breaking point.

«Because I was fucking raped, Luke.» I shouted, the first tear of the night running down my cheek.