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~LloydxDepressed!Reader~Why?

#15
Request: @lkjzcwmg

Word count: 859

Universe: Show

Age: 17 I guess

Status: Friends

Note/Warning: Depression and all that shit.
Never mind. I suck at writing on something I haven't been experienced for. sorry that it's short. I didn't have a plot line and it was kinda hard to write.

"Everything's going to be alright," my mom coed me.
"Don't wor-" A crash they say. I got multiple bleedings around me. I injured my leg. But that didn't hurt more than the emptiness in my heart.
My mom died immediately due to a drunk driver crashing. We caught the driver. We always did.

It was my dad.

He got high and my mom suggested we get him to rehab to help him. One problem was he was the one driving there. He got mad on the way saying that he didn't need help. He got mad at us trying to go there. He couldn't control the wheel and when we were drifting in the highway my mom tried reassuring me that we're going to make it.
She was half right. I made it. Not her.

That was six years ago.

Now, I live with the ninja. My mom was a ninja of weather. My dad was also mad that he wasn't an elemental master. He wouldn't make a good one either.

I only have two friends, well they all are but two closest. Which is Cole and Lloyd sometimes Zane as well.
Because they can relate on losing your parents. Lloyd and Zane lost their fathers. Cole lost his Mother. Jay is pending. Kai and Nya found their parents.

Today was a bit boring. Cole left for the day to visit his dad. He didn't tell me so he couldn't offend me. I got told by Lloyd while we were sparing. I get he's trying to be nice.  But that was straight up cold.
I figured I was closer to Lloyd than I am to Cole. Lloyd father was also under an influence and was bad. But at least died in a sacrificing way. Unlike my own.

I know no one actually cares for me. It's just a respected way of being friends.

I hate today. Today is the anniversary of my parents death. I never speak to no one about today. I just go up to her grave and sit then start talking onto what's happen in the last year. I find it a stress reliever to talk to her. I know she can hear me. She's the only one who cares.

"Then last week, we had Coles birthday party. It was somewhat fun. I haven't felt so much fun in so long. Remember those parties we used to do for fun? I would always ask "what's the occasion?" And you'll reply "You lived for another day." I always found it cheesy, corny or whatever like that. But you knew how to put a smile on my face. You knew how to light up my world. Now that you're gone, I have none of those. My cheeks hurt for fake smiling you know that. When I smiled all day with you, I didn't mind that my cheek started hurting. I didn't even know it would hurt or not." I rant to my mother.
She always love that I rant to her. I always ask her "why?" But she never responds. She just smiles.
I check my watch.
"Okay, mum. I have to go before they search for me. Love you." I stroke one of the flowers that I planted for her.

She loved gardening. I put her favourite flowers: Lotus flower. She would plant hundreds of these. Or as much she can get her hands on. I always manage to get them. Sensei even gives me some from his garden. He knew my mother. They were really close according to him.

I get up, walking away, not without looking back and smiling. She's always in my heart.

"Y/n?" A voice from behind called me. When I turned my head back forward, Lloyd was right there. Did I forget to mention that I have a crush on him? Did I also forget to mention, that Wu is the only person who knows?
He started smiling at me. I didn't feel like smiling. Who smiles at a cemetery?
"What are you doing-" before he can answer he comes up and hugs me. I would normally hug back but I froze. I couldn't move. Why is he hugging me?
"Sorry for your loss." I got angered at the sentence. Why is he sorry? He didn't do anything.

"No, thanks." I got out of his hold. Then I suddenly get a flashback of the moment. I haven't gotten a flashback in months. My moms desperate face. Her worried expression trying to comfort me. I could've done something.
I fall on my knees and start breaking out in tears. Despite my little snap at him, he comes rushing towards me going on his own knees hugging me. I couldn't do anything. I let him do it. Why is he doing it?
"Why do you care for me?" I croaked out. My voice is so raspy. My throat could barely gasp any air.

"Because I know what you're going through."