derek's poems

how much you mean to me

I hate the way you laugh

The way you laugh at nothing at all

I hate the way you smile 

The way you smile like you've got it all

Under control

But you don't 

You lie and you run away like a coward

Face me like a fucking man, I dare ya

I really wanna fucking kill you sometimes 

But it would make Mommy sad

I really wanna see you bleed

I really just want you to leave me be

Or better yet, leave me for dead

I really wish that you could see

How much you don't mean to me

I hate your stupid clothes

Your clothes don't hide what you are

A disgusting piece of breathing flesh

Stumbling home in the dark 

Because you're blind

You can't see anything outside 

Look around at the town, they're all sleeping 

But you're wide awake and you never stop dreaming

I really wanna fucking kill you sometimes

But it would make Mommy sad

I really wanna see you bleed

I really just want you to leave me be

Or better yet, leave me for dead

I really wish that you could see

How much you don't mean to me

Reality, well who is she?

I don't think you two will ever meet

So get your head out your ass

Stop living in the past 

And go be what you're supposed to be

I really wanna fucking kill you sometimes

But I can't make Mommy sad

There are too many times when I've seen you bleed

I really just want you to leave me be

Or please, God please, leave me for dead

It's finally know that I see

How much I don't mean to me