derek's poems

atmosphere

nothing is as lovely

as the love that we shared

nothing is as ugly

as i am without you here

nothing can replace

what we had and what we were

nothing can compare

to how i felt when i was yours

nothing is as beautiful

as being completely known

all the good and all the bad

until you're left alone

nothing is as painful

as a promise made two times

and broken in an instant

yeah it should be a crime

how you made me feel so wonderful

so worth it and so loved

and then it all just crumbled

and i know i wasn't enough

im never enough for anyone

so it's really my fault

for thinking this would be different

for thinking you'd still call

for believing that you'd stay with me

for trusting all your words

for giving you my everything

but all i had to give was all my hurt

for what it's worth

i gave you my trust

my faith put in you

bc you found the real me

something nobody else could do

you saw me as a frightened boy

you saw me as a broken soul

and you tried to fix me and it was working

i know that you gave me your all

and you saw me

something i never let anyone else see

that i was afraid of diving in

because i don't know how to breathe

underwater

in over my head

drowning in an ocean of you

if that's how i go out i won't mind being dead

im never enough for anyone

so it's really my fault

for thinking this would be different

for thinking you'd still call

for believing that you'd stay with me

for trusting all your words

for giving you my everything

but all i had to give was all my hurt

for what it's worth

you were amazing

you were everything i could ever ask for

and you gave me hope

you gave me a reason to swim back to shore

and now im still here

and im not going anywhere

ill be where you left me

if you feel the need to appear

you're my atmosphere