derek's poems

Untitled Part 83

i read thru our old messages

you were so in love with me

you told me i was worth it

and you promised to never leave

you made me promise you'd never lose me

but oh how the tables have turned

because you finally got tired of me

and now ive learned

you can't expect everything to go

exactly how you want

or even remotely close

you help me and you hurt me

you're just like a drug

and i wanna overdose

i'm dissociating again

i get distracted so easily

but i can't distract myself from thinking of you

it doesn't feel real to me

i don't feel real to me

every second of every day

you're stuck inside my mind

and it's not a good thing anymore

it makes me want to die sometimes

you can't expect everything to go

exactly how you want

or even remotely close

you help me and you hurt me

you're just like a drug

and i wanna overdose