do you ever get those moments where you're tired of keeping your feelings for another person hidden so you just want to tell them?
yeah me too.
I have a crush on my best friend, hwang hyunjin, and it seriously sucks.
It's literally 2am, and I'm texting him. We talk literally everyday, but our best conversations happen around 2am, and he always texts me around that time asking me if I'm up.
love is literally messed up, because I know I can't have him... or can I?
no what am I saying, I can't.
hyunjin🗿:
why don't we just meet up? I want to have these heartfelt conversations w u.
im coming by.
be ready in 10! :)
Me:
okay jinnie!!
'Jinnie' ? the heck is that??? oh my god jiyeon you're so dumb.
i put on a white shirt, Jean jacket and some black leggings with adidas shoes. Once I'm all dressed, I start playing around with my phone, waiting for hyunjin to text me that he's here.
after ten minutes or so, I receive the text from hyunjin that he's here. obviously he didn't knock on my door, since it is pretty late. So he is waiting for me at my own window.
luckily, hyunjin and I have been "sneaking out" from time to time . So I am practically an expert at this.
I saw him, so I opened my window and began getting out, at the very last second, I slipped and fell out.
Hyunjin ran to me yelling "ARE YOU OKAY" while I began to laugh.
"ugh I shouldn't even worry about you, you always laugh when you mess up" he says, chuckling.
"you also laugh, you find humour in my pain" I say, getting up while laughing.
"shhhh" he replies, walking off ahead of me.
He sure walks fast too what the-
I catch up and we continue walking in silence.
it remains that way for five minutes, I ended up staring up at the stars and just admiring them.
"jiwoo, wanna go to the park?" hyunjin asks me, smiling slightly.
"I thought that was where we were going anyway?" I say, softly chuckling while scratching the back of my head awkwardly.
"also, is it alright if I do this?" hyunjin asks, holding my hand, his grip being somewhat tight.
"oh.. yeah o-okay." I say, smiling at him but not too long after I look away shyly, trying to process the small action he did.
we walked in silence, the walk was around ten minutes, and hyunjin kept playing around with my hands. Rubbing his thumb on my knuckles.
He'd tightened then loosen his grip every couple moments to get my attention, and of course he succeeded. I'd always end up staring at him and well, he'd be looking at me already and just wink.
the things that you do to me.. kill me.
"we've arrived!" hyunjin yells out, letting go of my hand to run towards the swing set.
