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Chapter 22

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you,

Saying I'm sorry for that night

and I'd go back to December

It turns afraid to me nothing but missing you

Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine,

and I'd go back to December...

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smell

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry,

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming,

If I'd love again, I swear I love you right

I go back in time and change it but I can't

So if the chain is on your door I understand

I don't want anything else now, just Calum. But as much as I want him right now, I can't. Because I screwed everything up and I don't know if he'll forgive me, for that.

I'm staring at my wallpaper for the past timeless hours, smiling at how Calum is so cute when he did this pouty face. I remember when he was always the first one who greets me whether it's morning, noon or evening. He never gets tired to say I'm beautiful or how she's lucky to have me as her baby. He always the one who can't resist me and he's the one who never gets tired of cuddling with me.

I put my playlist on shuffle and hitting every song on me and Calum. I think even music is messing up with me.

When you walked away,

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,

The pieces of my heart are missng you

When you're gone,

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone,

The words I need to here to always get me through the day

And make it okay,

I miss you

I can't change the fact that he's mad at me and Ashton. I remember the face when he asked Ash. It was full of anger, disappointment and betrayal. His whole face was red, like a burning lava. And his lips were curled up in a circle. I've never seen this side of him before.

He was crying and my heart broke when I saw it. He wanted to come to me but Ash didn't let him come near me. I wanted to deeply come in his arms that moment. I wanted to sob in his sweatshirt and he'll comfort me with his sweet kisses. I wanted him to never leave me hanging on the floor. I want him. Calum, I want you so much.

I padded on his number struggling whether to call or not to call him, I want to tell him how I really feel.

That I miss him.
That I want to see him.
That I want to talk to him.
That I want to hug him.
That I want to feel his heartbeat.
That I miss his corny jokes.
That I miss his lips.
That I miss him being all clingy.
That I miss his smile.
That I miss his overall.
That I am so sorry.
And that I don't want to lose him.