Our Inner Demons

Chapter 5

After I went out of the doctor's office, this time with a massive burden I wish I never knew about, I was determined to look around the hospital and find my mother wherever she is.

I'm not sure how but I have managed to get back to the place where I was sitting and just as I walked into that waiting room I saw my mother coming inside from the other door.

She walked proudly, taking off her sunglasses and flipping her hair. I felt embarrassed not because she was my mother but because others will know that too if she comes to me.

"Celestia!" She waved at me because I looked away. I wish she didn't wear a tight short dress with leopard print. It seemed inappropriate for this place, and for any place at all.

"Mom..." I waited till she gets to me in her big heels she had a hard time walking in.

"Is everything done?" Maybe she meant to ask is everything alright with me. Maybe. "Can we go home now?"

"No. They want to speak to you."

"Why? You look fine. Are you alright?" She scanned me from head to toe as if my outside appearance can really tell her if I am sick or not.

"No. My head hurts..."

"Oh, my baby." She pushed my head to her chest and gave me a kiss on the head. "You just have to rest and you'll be fine. It's because you work too much. My head hurts all the time too. That's just how it is when you're an adult with jobs and responsibilities. It must be because you started working more often at the studio. But there's also a bright side. Can't you see how much weight you've lost? You look amazing, dear."

"I'm gonna stay here until you do whatever you have to do. I've already been to the doctor's office."

"And what did he say?" She asked that without too much care, it was more of a question that you would normally ask after someone tells you they've been at the doctor.

"He said something so awful that I can't stand to hear twice."

"You're kidding." She laughed. "Oh, you've always been a drama queen. Everything always has to be about you, doesn't it? But I'll let you have it. I'll go by myself. Just wait there."

"Alright..." I sat back on my chair, thinking of the way mom will react to what she hears. Perhaps what she is about to hear will change her in some way. I doubt that is going to happen but despite that I choose not to let go of my hope.

After nearly ten minutes of waiting my mom was walking towards me again. Her face expression wasn't different than when she first came into the hospital. My first thought was that the doctor didn't tell her. Maybe he thought she couldn't take it. But if she knew there is no way she would be this reserved.

I stood up as she approached me and tried to figure out what she was thinking about. She smiled with her mouth closed, making the smile look incredibly fake.

"So? Did you talk to the doctor?" I asked when I realized she wasn't gonna say anything unless I ask her first.

"Yes." She answered with great determination.

"And? What did he say?"

"You know what he said. The same thing he told you."

"Does that mean you know?"

"Yes." She nodded her head, looking straight up in the distance. "I know."

"And you have nothing to say?"

"What is there for me to say, Celestia?" She finally looked straight into my eyes. I saw how scared she was just to look into my eyes like they were hiding the truth she was scared of. "It is what it is."