My Secret Twin Sister//Emma Chamberlain + Dolan Twins +James Charles

thirty one

GRAYSON DOLAN

Freya was definitely something special to me. The first time I laid my eyes on her, I just knew I had to get to know her. I wanted to know her story, her life, her dreams, even her fears.

She was just that type of girl. The type of girl who had you begging for more... something a little extra.

There's no denying that she was in fact my first love so when I saw her standing in Emma and Annie's apartment, my heart stopped.

I know it wasn't right, and it wasn't fair what I did to Annie, but I couldn't help myself. The way Freya and I ended things were rough, but when I just saw her smiling at me, I felt happy.

The thing is, I wasn't expecting anything out of her being here. Basically, I thought she was just here for a couple days and then she'd go back home and that would be the end.

But that didn't necessarily happen, because Freya had other things in store for me. She thought by coming here that we could start all over again and that she could stay with Ethan and I. I was taken aback by her words, and to even think she thought it was a good idea in the first place to come out of no where and expect Ethan and I to house her.

I pushed everything aside though, wanting to find some type of closure with her. Obviously I knew it was going to be hard to break it to her at the end, but I knew when the time came I could be strong and speak what was on my mind.

Not talking to Annie through all of this was a mistake. She deserved an explanation the second I hugged Freya, but that was incredibly difficult for me because—like everyone tells me—Freya fries my mind and brainwashes me.

How can I be that stupid?

Going to the beach was a horrible idea. The whole time I did not want to be there. Especially when I saw Annie... she looked so damn beautiful. Her hair was up ever so perfectly in a messy bun. She doesn't know, but I love her hair that way because I can see her stunning face. Also, don't let me mention her body in that bikini. I couldn't look away, she had me mesmerized.

Sadly, I just knew she didn't want anything to do with me after what I did to her. That's why I didn't even attempt to talk to her. Freya didn't help at all, pissing me off to the point of me having to make up a lie to get out of the situation.

Now I wish I would have stayed close so I could have kept an eye on Annie.

God, even thinking of what happened makes my heart break. I could have prevented everything, but I was too busy thinking about myself.

When I found out Annie left, I was confused. Supposedly her stomach didn't feel well, but I just had a feeling it was a lie to get away from Freya and I. Who wouldn't have left? I'm surprised Annie even showed up in the first place. I would have hated my guts by now.

When Freya found out I noticed that she smirked,  I didn't think twice about it. So when she came up with the idea to all go to lunch , I agreed because I knew it would be my chance to see Annie and try and talk to her. That would also be my chance to break the ice to Freya and tell her she and I could never be a thing ever again.

She still wasn't taking the hint, and me being me I couldn't be straight forward so of course I was waiting until my breaking point with her.

When lunch came around, I was extremely nervous and excited to see Annie. I just knew I had to try my very hardest to talk to her or get her attention.

I missed her. Being without her for a few days made me realize how special this girl was and how extremely lucky I was to have her. She makes me so fucking happy, the happiest I could ever be.