The Friend With Benefits

25

Shakira

I was finally here facing my mother who was now on her death bed, even though I had all the anger in her I had to be here and see her one last time. My dad came running in as she held my hand tightly and mouthed out I'm sorry. I could tell she was about to go because her breaths were getting shorter and shorter and she looked so damn sick. Why she didn't tell anybody she had cancer this bad. Even though my mother lied on my dad I was going to miss the woman who gave birth to me and I wanted to cry so badly. I wanted to call Mali but I didn't want to bother her with my sad news. I don't know if she would care or not but I just needed some time to myself right now. I really didn't want to talk to anybody and I held my mom's hand tight until I saw her take her last breath. The doctors tried to come in and remove me but I wanted more time so they let me get more time. I talked to my mom about an hour and they had to take her. I felt better getting everything off my chest and my dad and I would now have to prepare funeral arrangements. That was easy because he had a life insurance policy on my mom and he never told her because they stopped talking because she was being stubborn and shit.

"I tried to tell your mom that she would be good if she ever passed away but I couldn't even talk to her while we were broken up", my dad said with tears running down his face. "That woman did me so dirty and I even couldn't see you be born because she didn't want me around that much." I cried now because my dad was breaking down and not once even before my mom died did she apologize. I felt bad for my dad because he's really in his feeling and he's weeping over somebody who didn't give one fuck about him. After the funeral stuff was done I would go back home with my dad and we would do what it takes to get over this. We left the hospital and got food and my dad shopped for food and snacks too. I just wanted to eat a pint of ice cream and maybe even finally talk to Mali or Keisha. I think I'll call Keisha first since she is my best friend and I trusted her with everything. I looked down at my phone and went to her contact and called her number, she picked up on the third ring. "Hey girl is everything okay", she asked concerned. "No my mom is gone and my dad is so heartbroken because she didn't even tell him sorry before she died", I said. "Damn girl did she even say anything to you though", Keisha asked. "Yeah she told me she was sorry."

After talking a bit with Keisha I hung up and called Mali and she answered right away.

M: Hey baby girl is everything good up there

S: Not really my mom passed away I was holding her hand until I saw her take her last breath

M: So how do you feel about all of this baby girl

S: I'm sad but hurt for my dad because she didn't say sorry to him before she died, she only told me she was sorry 

M: Damn that's crazy your dad have the right to be sad or upset because your mom did owe him an apology, she did him so dirty I'm surprised he even having her a funeral though

S: He's letting her go by finally laying her to rest and hopefully he'll be okay, I wish you was here to hold me though 

M: I wish I was there too but I got you when I get back and I got something serious to ask you too

S: Oh hell I hope it's not bad

M: No not at all I'll talk to you later okay but you need to rest and get your mind off things

After that we hung up and she was right, I did need to take my mind off things and so I was gonna go to bed after we got to the hotel. I was going to eat first because I haven't ate all day ans I really didn't have a appetite. I would try only because Mali did calm me down a little bit, man I was so thankful for her.