“There comes a point in your life when you realize:
Who matters,
Who never did,
Who won’t anymore,
And who always will.
So, don’t worry about people from your past, there’s a reason why they didn’t make it to your future.”
― Adam Lindsay Gordon
Chris POV
Naghiwalay na kami ni Sarah, uuwi na daw muna siya dahil gusto nyang magpahinga.
She seems okay.
I think?
She choose to let go.
I don't know.
Just how Paul Saulo let me go.
Why?
Why is it so much easier to let go of people we chose to let go of, but find it so much harder to let go of people who chose to leave our lives?
Is it when we let go of someone we ready ourselves to be hurt but when someone leave us...we can't do anything for it.
Nagpakawala ako nang malalim na buntong hininga.
I still want to hold on pero ang sakit-sakit na.
Nagmahal lang naman ako.
I headed to the library.
Dating gawi.
I check if may notes na naman galing kay PSR.
Wala namang initials na nakalagay sa sulat pero iniisip ko na lang na yung nagbigay sa akin ng panyo at ang nagbibigay sa akin ng notes ay iisa..
Agad kong binuklat ang sulat at medyo mahaba ito.
Nagsalubong ang kilay ko sa unang mga salita na nabasa ko.
'Give yourself a reality check. HE LEFT YOU.'
Grabe maka real talk to ah.
I continue reading.
'You should start moving on. Kinukulong mo ang sarili mo. Time heal all wounds thats fuck up. Maghihintay ka? That sucks! What if he won't come back. What will happen? Start living your life and go along with time. Tama na. Hindi ka na masaya. Sinasaktan mo lang ang sarili mo. Pati ang mga tao sa paligid mo. '
Yeah right. Nasasaktan ko na nga sila.
' Is that what you really want?'
No. Pero kasi....
' Do you now see why you need to let go of people who chose to leave your life? Why he left you? '
Napaluha ako. I remembered Paul Saulo saying about greater love.
But if it is love then why it hurts so much?
' Don't make that person your world. Wake up. He's maybe your happiness.
But for him you're not or maybe the right term is you used to be his happiness.
And that happiness is not what he wants anymore.
Because it is not always about you.
So you must do the same. '
I can't stop my tears.
'Stop holding on.'
I can't.
'Not all the time holding on makes us strong but sometimes it is letting go.
Start creating new experiences, memories, and connections to replace the old memories.
Start living.'
What should I do?
BINABASA MO ANG
His Deepest Downfall
RandomLife is a myriad of things, too much to see, too little time. It's either you get something out of it or let it simply slip away. And I used to slip it away a lot. There are some things that we have ignored, and those things will never happen again...
