Show me your smile [Beelzemon x Reader]

81: Stargazing

You wake up, noticing it's dark outside. However you feel completely refreshed. As you sit up, you notice your clothes have changed into a strawberry pajama shirt and as you feel the empty place on the bed next to you, you notice it's still warm. His jacket is on the back of the chair and as you look out of the window you see a yellow, thin stream coming down. You sigh and think he's on the top, making your way there.

You were right. As you step out to the top, he's sitting on his chair. "What are you doing out here? It's late" you say. He's surprised to hear your voice and turns around hastily to look at you. He's not wearing his helmet. "What? Besides, aren't you feeling cold? I brought your jacket..." He gets up and walks to you, taking the jacket. "You should know better than catching a cold out here" he says, putting the jacket on you. "There. Do you wanna come sit with me?" he asks. You look at the sky then at him. "Sure."

He sits back on his chair, patting his laps. "I'll keep you warm." You sit in his arms, leaning your back against his chest. He points to the sky. "Do you see those stars there? That snake form." You look into the direction and nod. "They call that the place Qinglongmon's constellation. And that one there, on the left, is my code key's symbol. Isn't it cool?" he asks. You just stay silent, watching all the stars before you sigh.

"Are you okay?" he asks. You lean back and look up at his face. "How long did I sleep?" you ask. "Well you slept the rest of the day, then for the next day and now it's the third day, or night. Whatever, but I hope you got yourself full of energy again." You look away now. "Did anything happen?" He smiles, petting your head. "Doumon's kids are alright and she's been feeling better today. And your period stopped. I was changing your tampon the night before but there was only a little blood at the tip and you weren't bleeding anymore when I examined you. I also fed you while you slept, even chewed the food for you and took you to the toilet and washed you." You look back into the sky, blushing a bit. "That's all?" He nods. "Promised to take good care of you and that's what I did." You laugh at him a little. "Yeah, I know your pride's too high to let you take your words back."

You're met with another silent moment before you open your mouth again. "Do you remember when you were kind of spacing out and feeling bad and stuff?" He sighs. "Yeah, many times. What about it?" he asks. "I want you to be honest to me. You can rely all your troubles to me so you don't have to carry that heavy feeling inside your chest all alone." He's quiet for a moment before he answers. "I... Don't want to burden you with my problems." You turn yourself around so that you're straddling him and cup his cheeks, kissing him before opening your mouth again. "How about we talk about your past life first? You were pretty depressed about it when you were Baalmon."

With a sigh he starts. "I used to drink a lot and lose my memory over it, kept lots of women, was mean to my servants and didn't even let them eat but kept them all working nonetheless. They ended up Bakemon because of me. I killed lots of innocent digimon for fun, thinking that they'll just be reborn like they do, and laughed at their pain and agony as the last thing they saw was the smile on my face as I watched them cry and turn into an egg. I destroyed the lives of families like our friends' and had a new hot babe by my side every month. I could trust none of them since they were all just asking for sex, fashionable clothes to play with, money, drinks and food, trying to leech off me to live like queens."

You feel like you've done something wrong because you enjoy the clothes, the drinks, the food and the sex and just sit there silently, looking guilty. "N-no, I wasn't talking about you, I was talking about the bitches that kept leaving me when I found them out. I know you really love me, right?" he corrects and touches the spot your part of Love is. "This tells me a lot. It tells me you're ready to bind yourself to me to the bitter end. It makes me so happy just to think about that." You look away. "Out with the rest of the things pressing you... I don't want to get lost in thought."

He chuckles. "So persistent... The things of today that trouble me, number one is losing you, number two is the thought of ending the lives of actually innocent angels, like Gabriel and old Pan..." "You too? Thought you could handle it since you were comforting me with that." He shakes his head. "I just told you the words I wanted to hear myself." You sigh. "It's up to me whether we kill them or not and how we dispose of the body if there is one. I can handle it for as long as you're with me. We're saving this world after all."

He smiles. "You've shown me a whole new world, don't you dare to take it from me" he says teasingly. You smile at him. "For as long as I'm concerned, you're not going to get rid of me even if you kept pushing me away. Nothing will come between us, except for these clothes~" you say, tugging the collar of his top lightly. "Oh, you're in that mood~ Then, what if we eat something, bathe and get back to sleep? I wouldn't want to wear you out right away." You nod. "But first let me go check on Doumon and Digitamamon. I can tell them we need food too." He sighs and nods, smiling. "Should've known you're up for helping others right away before thinking of yourself."