An Illusion of Love | E.D.

T W E L V E

Kayla's P.O.V

After spending some time in the cafe thinking and dwelling on what to do, I finally decided to drive home.

Of course, right when I turned into my street, his car was obviously parked near my house. I knew it would be, to be completely honest. I knew he would show up sooner or later. I was just hoping it would be later.

I sigh and drive towards my house, parking my car in the driveway. I decide to wait inside for a while longer, just until I feel ready to put up a front at least. I know I will need it.

After waiting in my car a bit longer than expected, I step out of the car and slowly make my way towards my door.

I hear his door slam a few seconds after indicating he was out of his car too.

Soon enough his loud heavy footsteps were approaching me causing goosebumps to form on my skin.

"Kayla" he softly whispered, catching my attention.

I swallowed a lump stuck in my throat before speaking. "Odd to see you here" I sarcastically commented once I faced him.

"I'm sorry" he apologized. Right, when he did my eyes found his as I began to read them.

He was being sincere, which made this a whole lot harder.

"Is that all?" I asked, feeling myself growing weaker every second I stood there with him next to me.

"Kayla please hear me out. I'm trying really hard here and I know you are too- it's just so hard for me not to screw up. You deserve someone
better than me, I know that, but it seems like I'm bound to you in an inexplicable way. I promise to try working things out this time and-"

"No" I sighed." I want you to stop promising me stuff."

"I want you to stop apologizing."

"I want you to show me you love me, not just saying it" I chuckle feeling my wall beginning to deteriorate.

"The word loses its meaning every time you say it because your actions say the complete opposite. If you want me to consider giving you a second chance, you better earn it because this is your last shot and I know I stay that a lot but this time I mean it."  my glossy eyes, filled with so many tears, making it that much harder to look at him clearly.

I can't keep them in any longer.

Ethan looks down at his feet and somehow finds the strength to look back up with hurtful eyes.

I finally begin to walk away once he does.

Tears continued to fill my eyes and it was getting harder and harder to control them.

I wanted to turn back. Yet part of me didn't want to. It seemed a little easier not to once I reached the door of my house.

I unlocked it and stepped inside and closed it right behind me not caring to look back.

Ethan's P.O.V.

I'm such a fucking screw up.

A fuck up.

I truly am. I manage to fuck everything up in a matter of days, hours, minutes you name it.

She deserves someone better than me. So much better.

She deserves someone who can give her the world, the whole universe.

She deserves to be with someone that isn't me.

I hurt her more than I think I do. I'm ruining her.

And it seriously hurts me so fucking much watching her in this state because of me. Because of what I did. Because of something that I can't make up for now.

I can protect her from it partially until I'm ready, but how do I get her back after it's all said and done.

I allowed myself to stand outside her house a little while longer, letting the dark night comfort me a bit. After a couple of minutes, I walked over to my car and began driving after the tears in my eyes had stopped.

I came to the realization that I couldn't live without her anymore. It was as if my body wasn't equipped to survive.

She was and is my one and only even after everything I have done.

I just don't show it, but I will soon.

Maybe starting tomorrow or maybe the next day. She needs a day or two. She needs space from me. She needs space and I need to give it to her whether I like it or not.

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A/n

Idk kinda sucked.

Sorry loves