I woke up to the sound of rain against the windows and the roof. The lights that leaked in through the window was soft, and dark.
I immediately put my feet over the edge of the bed before I stood up, preventing my vision from going dark.
My hair was tangled as I let my cold hands run through it.
I looked down to realize that I was only wearing my black panties, and nothing else. I let my hair cover my breasts as I quickly got up, and went to the closet, and slipped on a cardigan to cover myself.
I went downstairs, and immediately craved something to eat, but I knew that I really didn't have anything. I had put off going grocery shopping forever, and it felt like such a boring thing to do.
I looked outside to see rain falling densely, creating a stream down the street. I loved the rain. I left the window open.
I forgot about last night; yesterday. It took me a while to remember I had gone with Jesse to eat food, and he told me about Zach.
Shit, he was supposed to text me. Did he? Why did my ass fall asleep again?
I quickly went back to my bedroom to check my phone to see if he responded like he said he would.
"Hey Nina, still awake?" The text said.
I felt guilty for falling asleep. I wondered if I should see a doctor because it now seemed very likely that I had EDS. I probably got it from my mother.
I picked up the phone and dialed Jesse's number, hoping I wasn't dissrupting him in any way. I feared the idea of being the bitch who wouldn't shut her mouth. It's true.
He picked up on the fourth ring.
"Hey Nina" I heard him say, like he was tired. The clock said '9:04'.
"Hey, am I bothering you? Is this a bad time?" I said shyly.
I could hear a girls voice in the background; she sounded tired too. Maybe he was sleeping with somebody. When I heard the sounds of sheets moving, it was clear.
"N-no." He said unenthusiastically.
I hung up.
I would call him later, to save myself the embarassment.
I pulled my cardigan back into place over my loose breasts, and pulled a fuzzy blanket from the closet, and dragged it behind me to the couch. I curled up in the corner, and layed it over me with my phone on the table. I was warm and comfortable now, but with nothing to do. There was a television in front of me.
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I watched Catfish for an hour before I got bored again. Zach was all that I could think about, and I hated it, but loved it at the same time. Thinking about him was so calming and perfect, but it was stupid because he probably didn't care; I had only known this boy for a week. His face was perfection; so was his shyness; so was his body; so was everything about him, but thinking this way made me feel ignorant. He wasn't mine to keep, or not yet at least.
I got up from my soft nest of warmth and comfort, then walked to the bathroom, and turned on the hot water in the tub, and closed the drain. I sat on the toilet until it filled up to a nice depth, then slid my cardigan off my bare frame, then slid down my underwear.
Nothing was more blissful then taking a hot bath in cold weather. I let my body lay down like a doll on the white-marble tub. I felt like a goddess.
I layed in peace for half an hour, but it only felt like a few minutes. A goddess is probably the opposite of what I looked like. I probably looked like Medusa with my long hair swirling through the tub and no makeup on my face.
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Black Beauty (Z.A. Love Story// Explicit)
FanficNina; the sad beauty from Arizona stuck with beauty, wealth, all wrapped in an abusive lifestyle. She has never loved anything before, until she meets Zach. (Warning: This is no ordinary fanfic. There's death, visions, and sex included.)