BTS Imagines 2 [REWRITING]

Jimin ♡ Lost [request]

Published: March 29, 2019
Rewritten: November 13, 2024

Word count: 1,100

Requested by @BAAAANGTAAAANN
Based on Lost by BTS

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I'm still standing here with my eyes closed
Lost between the deserts and oceans
I'm still wandering
Where should I go yeah

Jimin's tired eyes peered out at the city of Seoul from his apartment window, admiring the buildings and the blue, cloud-streaked sky, trying to clear his head. So many stressful thoughts had been weighing on him for the last few days. Thoughts he couldn't shake.

I didn't know there were this many
Paths I can't go and paths I can't take
I never felt this way before
Am I becoming an adult?

It was hard for Jimin, being an idol. It was his dream, but it was a demanding and stressful job. He enjoyed what he did, but often times, the stress would get to him and it left him wondering if this was the right path. Bringing you, his girlfriend, into the equation made things all the more overwhelming. Jimin worried for you and about the hate you might receive when and if you both decided to go public with your relationship. You already worried about him, so he didn't want to make it worse for you by telling you everything he was struggling with. He knew he should, but he couldn't bring himself to do so.
When he was a trainee he didn't have to worry too much about anything except making it big. He was a teenager chasing after a dream, focused on passing evaluations and proving himself worthy. Now that he was in his twenties he was left to ponder, wondering if that time was squandered.

This is too hard, is this path right for me
I am confused
Never leave me alone
I still believe even though it's unbelievable
To lose your path
Is the way to find that path

Jimin felt lost, confused, and scared. Was being an idol even the right thing? The stress and anxiety that came with being a celebrity was difficult. People assume things and expect you to be perfect even though you're far from it. They want you to make no mistakes and never do anything any normal person would do. It was a heavy burden to carry.

It took time for Jimin to finally come clean about his concerns to you over FaceTime.
"I'm sorry. I should've told you sooner, but I didn't want you to know I've been going through all this. You're always concerned about me and I didn't want to make you worry more." A tear fell down Jimin's cheek as he finished his long-winded vent.
"It's okay." You spoke reassuringly. "I wish you would've told me sooner because bottling it up only makes it worse, but I'm glad you finally said something."
Jimin sniffled, his eyes glossy.
"I won't leave you, Jimin. And I'll always worry about you wether everything is okay or not. If you're ever feeling overwhelmed, talk to me about it, okay? That's what I'm here for."
Jimin nodded. "Thank you."

Lost my way
Constantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstorms
Lost my way
Within a complicated world without an exit
Lost my way
Lost my way
No matter how much I wander, I want to believe in my path

He couldn't help but feel a heavy sense of sorrow weighing on him. He sighed and pulled at his hair, tugging on the roots. The more he practiced the routine, the worse he performed... or at least, that's what Jimin thought. He could never get it right, but he had to. He knew he had to push through.
He had millions of fans cheering him on and being an idol was his dream. Not to mention his recent talk with you. That's what helped to push him forward.
Despite the stresses, he believed this was the right path for him.

Lost my way
Found my way
Lost my way
Found my way
I once saw an ant going somewhere
There is no way to find the path at once
Constantly crashing and crawling forward
To find something to eat, roaming for days
You know
There is a reason for all this frustration
I believe that we're on the right path
If we ever find it
We will return home at once just like an ant

Jimin had to persevere. Being an idol is what he loved. So what if he was being judged? The criticism, the hate comments, the unwarranted backlash. Jimin pushed it all aside. Those who were close to him knew who he truly was, you being one of those people. That was all that mattered.

So long
Goodbye to my hope with no promise
So long
Even if I'm slow I will walk with my own feet
Because I know this path is mine to take
Even if I go back, I will reach this path eventually
I never I will never
I will never lose my dream

I can do this. He thought.
Jimin would get through it with his brothers and you, his girlfriend, by his side. They were all cheering him on, even if they didn't always say it out loud. He knew internally they were wishing only the best for him.
So what if he messed up on a routine during practice? So what if cyberbullies said harsh stuff about him, attacking his talents and looks? He knew it wasn't true and that ARMY would have his back and take up for him when he couldn't or wasn't allowed to speak out for the sake of his idol image. And that gave him comfort.

Lost my way
Constantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstorms
Lost my way
Within a complicated world without an exit
Lost my way
Lost my way
I wander, I want to believe in my path

Jimin had come out of the funk he was in, his mind clear and his spirits lifted. Throughout it all, he wouldn't change a thing, even the struggles.
He stood on stage with his six best friends under the bright lights. You and Jimin had made your relationship public and had gotten an overwhelming amount of support from the fanbase. Jimin gazed out at the crowd full of brilliant glowing lightsticks, his eyes finally settling on you standing at the barricade, smiling up at him. You were surrounded by fans, ARMY, the people who supported him and his best friends with all their hearts. That sight alone was enough to uplift Jimin and remind him that despite it all, this was where he was destined to be.

Lost my way
Found my way
Lost my way
Found my way

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Rewriting this made me want to listen to Lost again. It's been a few years since I last listened to older BTS stuff

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