Naruto characters x reader

Spirit Lee x Sad reader

Requested by DramaQueensey_uwu

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(Y/n)'s POV

I have lived a short life.

Only 18 years.

Eighteen years full of tears and smiles.

Eighteen years with me trying to avoid my problems.

Eighteen years of endless fights.

I have thought many times of killing myself. I have thought of ending my life. This awful life full of screams and fake smiles. Yet, I never was able to do it. I never was strong enough to press that knife. I never had the courage to take those pills.

So useless.

I am just a failure. A girl that tries to help with no use. A girl that wants to spread smiles, when hers is a fake one. I am a girl. A poor girl that is tired of everything around her. Tired of her parents, of her friends, of everything in her life.

The only thing I ever wanted was a normal life. A life were I still had problems, but not so hard to deal with. All I wanted was me being fine and having a real smile. I wanted to be normal, but I am so far away from it. I am not even close to the light. The only light I have right now is the moon. It looks beautiful up there. So beautiful that I have come to enjoy its silence. It may can't talk nor hear me, but still it knows me better than anyone. It knows the real me.

I have thought many times of dying so I can be with the moon. So I can be able to fly up there. However, I never did it, because I am weak. So weak that I am disgusted of myself. So weak that I wish someone else could kill me. So pathetic.

-"I knew that you were here."

A man's voice said from behind me. I didn't move nor did anything to acknowledge his presence. I just stayed still.

-"You sure like the moon." he said again, this time his voice sounding closer than before.

I didn't move again. I just stayed there with my eyes being locked on the moon. My eyes looking at it for hours without getting tired a bit, without wanting to get down of the roof.

-"You are too quiet today. What happened?" the man asked me again sounding sad.

-"Get lost Lee." I said not tearing my gaze off the moon.

-"Bad day I guess. And since your eyes are red you were crying." Lee said frowning a little.

-"I am not in the mood Lee." I said as I sighed.

-"Neither I. So let's end this."

I frowned at that as my eyes went on him. My (e/c) eyes looking in his black ones. A small smile on his lips as his black hair was carried away by the wind that was around us. He was wearing again the same clothes. Black shoes, black pants with a red shirt and a green jacket. He was the same. The same man that I met 5 years ago.

-"Lee. Please leave." I said as I hide my face in my hands.

-"Will you cry again?" he asked me frowning.
-"With crying you won't achieve anything."

-"I know, but it's not like I can do something else. My life is a mess." I said as I took deep breaths trying to calm down myself.

-"You can end it all." Lee said smiling.

-"I wish I could."

-"Let me help you." he said as he stood up.
-"And before you know it you will be somewhere better or even with me."

I stared at him for a little before standing up. I walked near him as I enjoyed the view in front of me. I was on my house's roof and from here I could see almost the whole village. Such a beautiful view, yet so sad with the moon giving it light.

-"Its easy (Y/n)." Lee said smiling.
-"You just come at the end of the roof and jump!"

After that he jumped. I wasn't surprised nor panicked. I know him very well. I know who exactly he is. I know what he can do. So when he come up flying in front of me I wasn't shocked at all. I just stared at him with a black gaze. A stare that I gave him when I wasn't effected by his words or act at all. A stare that I have only this spirit, that I met 5 years ago when I started wanting to die.

-"Don't look at me like that (Y/n). It's more easy than you think."

I sighed as I walked near the edge. I stared down seeing how high I was. If I fall from here, I will die for sure. The perfect way to die. It may hurt, but every death is hurtful. So there is no point in thinking that. I just need to take a step forward. Only a step. However, I can't. My body won't move at all. My body won't respond to my thoughts. I am weak after all.

-"Just jump (Y/n). It's easy."

I looked at him and then at the moon. My eyes having a black stare as I tried to concentrate on what I have to do. Yet, I still couldn't force myself to move forward. I couldn't do anything. I just stayed there looking at the moon. I stared at it thinking all my mistakes. Thinking who I am.

I am a girl, a broken girl. Pieces fall from my body making me more and more vulnerable to the world. Making me hate what I have become. I have an awful soul too. So dark and lonely that scares everyone away. It makes everyone run to the light not wanting to end up like me, not wanting to end up dead. I am a monster, a demon. I am not a normal girl and I will never become one. I know it.

-"Sorry Lee. I can't do it." I said as I took a step away from the edge.

-"I can't understand you. You want to die, but you don't do it. Why?" he asked me confused.

I stared at him thinking about it. I have no one to love in this world, no one to support me. I am just surrounded by unimportant people. People that come to me when they want to smile. People that I make happy. People that smile when I can't be happy. That's right. I make everyone smile. I make them happy. I do that because I know what it means not to be happy. I know what it means to feel sad. So I try my best to make them smile and be happy. I try my best to fulfill their needs. I do that to fill my entry heart with hope that some people still care for me. With hope that I do something useful.

-"I like spreading smiles." I answered to Lee with a small smile as I started walking away.

I wasn't feeling happy, but I wasn't sad either. I was feeling fine. I was feeling normal. So normal that I forgot my problems for a little until Lee spoke.

-"Let's end things another time!" he said smiling.

-"Of course." I answered entering my house.

We could try again and again. We could try until we achieved our aim, until we achieved my desires. We could try until I could eventually touch him, until I became a spirit.

So easy to think, but so hard to do.

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The end.