Halos hindi ko naramdaman yung pag lipas ng mga araw. Nath has been trying to ruin our relationship for a month but guess what? Our love for each other is much stronger than what she's trying to make us understand.
Dumarating ako sa point na hindi ko na alam kung maaawa ba ako sa kanya o maiinis na. There are times na susulpot siya out of nowhere and sometimes, sinasadya na yung pagpapapansin.
Ang hirap pala kapag nawala yung taong mahal mo, eh, 'no? 'Yong tipo ng pagmamahal na pagsisisihan mo kapag nawala na sayo. The type of love where you can swallow your own pride and dignity just to get the person you love back.
What can I say? Parang kahit naman yata ako, gagawin ko yun. There are times that she looks desperate pero mukhang kahit ako, gagawin yung mga bagay na ginagawa ni Nath para kay Althea.
This is not a competition. I know. It's just that... if ever man na may mangyari, if I will ever do some stupidity na pwedeng maging dahilan ng pag iwan niya sakin, I'll do anything that I can to get her back.
Why am I even thinking about this? Hindi niya naman ako iiwan. Althea loves me.
Napayuko ako agad at napabitaw sa ballpen na kanina ko pa pinaglalaruan. What if bumalik yung dating nararamdaman ni Althea para kay Nath? What if Nath will succeed? What will happen to us? Paano kami ni Althea? Paano siya? Paano kung iwan siya ulit?
Just the thought of Nathalie's angelic face scares me. Maganda siya, aminado ako. Maganda na sa maganda. I once saw her attitude. The real one. I saw how shiny her eyes can be when she laughs. How helpful her hands can be whenever there's somebody who needs a helping hand.
Argh! Ito na naman ako sa pag si-self pity ko. Kinakawawa ko na naman yung sarili ko.
Pero... its actually not just her face and attitude that scares me. Siya mismo. Sa kanya mismo.
I can be the baddest person that I can whenever I'm facing her. I can be as savage as villain in movies... but... deep inside me, I know how fragile and weak I can really be.
Ironic, isn't it? Well, ganon naman yata talaga. Kung sino yung strength mo, sila din yung weakness mo.
Hay, buhay!
Hindi na nga ako magbabasa. Wala rin namang pumapasok sa isip ko. I've been trying to focus the moment I sat on my chair but up until now, wala pa rin.
Sinubukan kong libangin yung sarili ko with the help of games in my phone. Kahit social medias, videos, still, wala pa rin.
Napapako sa akin yung mga bagay na naisip ko kanina. Really, I don't know if I'm just thinking too much or nagiging realistic lang ako.
"Uuwi na ako, Joven."
"Sige po, Ma'am. Sabihan ko na lang po si Ma'am Jane pag labas niya. Manghihingi naman po 'yon ng kape." Ngumiti siya at nagpatuloy sa pag aayos ng trays.
"No, ako na." I smiled a little.
Geez. Parang kahit yung ibang tao mapapakitaan ko ng hindi maayos na mood. Grabe na 'to. Magkakaron na siguro ako.
I knocked twice— "can I come?" Mahina kong tanong. Well, rinig niya naman siguro. I'm not really that loud person na enjoy kasama sa lahat ng bagay.
"Yes," pasigaw niyang sagot.
"Hey," I smiled as I walk towards her table. "Stressed?" I chucked.
"Nope. Not really. Iritado lang," she sighed.
"Lalim, ah?" Natatawang biro ko. "Kwento naman."
