COMPLICATED.

CHAPTER 7

THE TRUTH

<< Please, I can explain everything to you. >>
Is he serious?Did he really just come into my house without permission?
Nick points it out this to him with a threatening look, so he decides to take a step back.
Good, asshole. You understand everything.Now watch me stepped on you.
After some minutes of silence I speak in a frantic and calm way, for what I can.
<< Really? I can't wait! I'm really curious. Tell me how your mouth accidentally ended up on her. Or how your clothes accidentally were taken off by themselves. Or better yet, tell me how you accidentally fucked another girl who isn't yours! >>
Both are staring at me with their mouths open.
Nick, after a certain dismay, smiles at me, satisfied of my answer while Leo begins to cry like a child.
What a depressing scene!
My life is really a cliché.
I seem to be in a typical drama movie scene.
How I wish it was but unfortunately this is the real life.
<< Please, I don't know, don't...>>
<< Leo, for once, just say the simple and pure truth, instead of always saying please, whimpering like a child. My brother is ten years old and is already more man than you. >>
Nick is still shocked by my attitude, I don't know whether in a positive or negative way .
I don't recognize myself anymore but who cares I'm enjoying this moment.
Leo starts talking fast and stuttering more and more.
<< I-It wasn't my intention, I tried to avoid it but she insisted. I didn't know what to do.
We didn't get along anymore, we always fought, every day. She made me forget for a few minutes that I was fighting with you. But right after that I  immediately thought of you. And I realized the crap I was doing every time. Please, please forgive me, you know I love you. >>
I stare disgusted Nick's face next to me and Leo's eyes reflecting my dismay.
Now I just lost my temper and I can't take it anymore.
<< Did you at least think about what you were saying during your Oscar speech?! Congratulations, I'll give you the first award! >>
We didn't get along anymore
We fought every day.
Always fighting with you.
I hope he's joking.
<< Do you realize you're talking with the plural? This situation that you suffer so much has been created by yourself! And I don't even know the reason! For all these years I've always been by your side, I've supported you, I've given up on making friends for you, I've always been your shadow, I've given you everything and now don't come here and tell me this crap! You can't blame me for your sick thoughts. I don't even know why you treated me like this in these months. I'm really curious about...>>
<< Because we have been together for three years and never had sex!
Do you have any idea what this means to me ?! >> he interrupts me, raising his voice.
Nick is about to explode and he's prepare to get his hands on him but I mentally beg him not to.
I remain speechless. All these years... What does it mean?!
I don't know with what courage I can answer him and at this point I am the one stuttering.
<< S-so it was always this for you? A question of sex? You didn't feel anything for me, was it all for sleeping with me ?! >>
I am petrified. No, I don't want to believe it, it can't be true. No, he loved me or at least before.
He doesn't comment, just stares at me. God, I beg you for something, deny everything. You can't have done this to me.
After my new tears he starts talking again.
<< The first year started as a goal to reach.
I wanted to go to bed with you but after a few months I understood the beautiful person that you were and that you are. The second year I was totally in love with you. We were always together and I respected your choice  because I no longer cared about anything. But this year we weren't closer as before and doubts and worries have become so much more. I had to worry about my scholarship and this kept me away from you , until I met Sasha. >>
He stops to stare at Nick as soon as he pronounce her name and then he continues looking back at me.
<< She was always flirting with me and she promised me things that you could not have given me for now and so...>>
<< How long? >> I interrupt him, now I'm crying without stopping.
He can't even look at me in the face.
<< HOW LONG? >> I scream.
Frightened by my reaction, he answers immediately.
<< For eight months ...>>
EIGHT MONTHS. What?!
It's not true. I can't be so stupid that I haven't noticed anything all this time. He can't have hurt me like that. This thing is insane.
Wait, then why a few weeks ago he wanted to organize a date for her and Nick?
And from the way I stare at him I understand that he reads my mind.
<< The situation was becoming too obvious for too many people. So we decided together that it would be easier if Sasha went out with him, someone who didn't know anything, someone close to... >>
<< To me. >> I murmur.
Nick looks at me petrified as well.
I no longer exist right now .I lost track of time and place again.
Nick's phone rings from I don't know how much time. It's my father but he doesn't have the courage to answer.
<< Babe I'm so sorry, I love you, I wanted to break up with her! >>
<< Don't you fucking dare! Don't ever call me like that again, don't call me anymore! Get away from my life, out of here! >> I scream closer and closer to him.
<< It's the truth! I lov...>>
I don't even let him finish the sentence that my hand ends up straight in his cheek, giving him a nice slap.
Yes, it will remain the sign for a while.
Leo's pain turns into anger and he grabs me by his arm and starts to calmly to talk to me.
<< Listen to what I'll say and listen very carefully. You'll be alone forever because you will never know how to give a man what he wants. Alone and vergin. >>
Until I no longer feel his touch or his words.
Everything happens quickly.
Nick grabs Leo and throws him to the ground, giving him punches and slaps in the face repeatedly.
Leo cries out in pain.
Nick doesn't stop.
Stop. Please stop.
<< Nick stop it! You'll kill him! >> I cry.
I had never seen him like this.
Nick, the good guy I know, has just turned into something dark. Which I had never seen.
Leo continues to scream.
Nick doesn't stop.
I can't stop the tears.
Suddenly I hear the door slam and my father tries to separate them. My mother comes to hug me and everything ends.
<< You! I think it's better if you leave within ten seconds before I do something that I might regret. And stay away from her! >>
My father screams.
Nick loses blood from his nose and mouth and Leo looks pretty bad, also more than him.
Suddenly he pointed his finger at me.
<< Remember the words I said >> he says and leaves.
And I collapse completely. This is too much.
I run to my room, I hear Nick and my mother running after me but I've already locked myself in my room.
<< EMMA! PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR! >> Nick screams.
Leave me alone.
Just leave me alone.
Alone , again.