COMPLICATED.

CHAPTER 28

NEW FEELINGS

I always thought Nick's lips were so soft, but after today, I can definitely confirm that.
I got lost in that kiss, I got carried away by the moment and I forgot where we were, it felt like I was on another planet, diving into something unknown that turned out to be something very...upsetting.
I never felt this way with Leo. It was definitely nice to be kissed by him but with Nick, I don't know how to describe it.
I don't know anything anymore, it's all so confused but also weirdly so beautiful.
His arms holding me close to him, as if he was afraid to let me go, in a single gesture he conveyed to me in full what he felt in that moment.
I finally felt free, that I was finally part of something and, above all, of someone.
I thought I was madly in love with Leo, so why haven't I ever felt these mixed emotions that I have with Nick now? Is it possible that I've never been in love? Was it just affection? I don't know, I'm so confused. I can never fully enjoy what happens to me, I must always be too rational and create problems, I am this now, whether I like it or not.
It was the longest kiss I have ever received. After his sudden reaction we stayed there to cuddle and kiss for hours that seemed only minutes for us, we couldn't detach from each other.
His compliments, they make me feel strange.
Before I didn't notice it, because for me it was like those that my little brother makes to me, but now I just get the chills to hear them whispered in my ear as he gently moves my long blonde locks.
What a wonderful feeling...
I look at him, or I stare amazed, as he backs out of the parking lot. I still can't believe it happened. We haven't had time to talk about anything yet, I don't have to run too fast with these thoughts but I mean, how can I not think about it? Come on! With THAT face, that muscular physique, his tuft moving with the wind coming in through the car window, his piercing and attentive eyes, her smile, and that carefree laugh...
'Emma, will you stop it?! You have to control yourself, I've already told you!'
Go to hell with that damn mind! Today I don't feel like listening to you. I want to enjoy this moment, to the end.
We spend these few minutes together listening to the radio our favorite playlist, from rhythmic songs to the slowest and romantic ones.
'Just the way you are' by Bruno Mars echoes throughout the cockpit of his red Mercedes. He looks at me singing and smiling all over the song, and I know him too well to know that he's dedicating it to me and I can't help but smile at him and blush. After realizing it he takes my hand and carries it on his lips to kiss it. Those lips...Can it go better than that?!
We arrive too early at my house and in front of the big gate I find myself facing anything but a nice surprise.
Nick is already getting nervous.
Leo is dismayed at the sight of us together, he must have sensed something.
<< Don't worry, stay here. >> he whispers to me calmly but at the same time with a nervous tone.
Leo runs menacing towards us and in a second he manages to open my car door abruptly.
<< GET OUT IMMEDIATELY FROM THIS FUCKING CAR! >> he screams by banging his hands in my seat.
How dare he give me orders? Is he really dumb?!
I don't even lower his levels, I don't answer him and turn my face to avoid looking at his shit face.
<< Did you hear me?! Get out! >> he keeps shouting, drawing the attention of all the neighbours.
<< That's enough. >> Nick hisses quickly getting out of the car.
World War III breaks out here, if not worse.
In a second he's already a millimeter away from Leo's face.
<< Try repeating it in front of me, asshole! >> Nick screams pushing him in the chest to push him away.
Leo is ready to put his hands on him.
Oh no, not this again.
I run and push them to opposite sides in an attempt to stop them.
<< Are you crazy?! There are people watching us! >> I say panicking .
<< Oh my God, I'm calling the police! >> an old woman shouts at us taking her phone from her purse.
Ma'am, don't put yourself in it.
<< Don't worry, it was just a misunderstanding between them, now everything is resolved! >> I say in an attempt to reassure her.
I'm anything but calm now.
I approach Leo continuing to smile.
<< Come inside the garden and wait for me, try not to do other shows. >>
<< You're dead to me. >> he hisses pointing the finger at Nick .
Nick answers him by showing him his middle finger.
<< You can go, I got this. >>
He runs towards me and puts his hand on my cheek.
<< No, I'm not leaving you alone with him, it's out of the question. >>
<< Nick, please...>> I say indicating the crowd that has gathered on the opposite side of the road.
<< Okay, but call me. >>
<< Yes. >>
<< What a disgusting scene...>> he exclaims Nick, faking a gag.
The usual bad actor, what a pity that makes me.
He disappears from my sight just before I answer properly, fortunately.
<< Go, it's all good. >>
Nick nods and gets back defeated in the car, turns on the car and leaves with the engines rumbling.
Here we go, another beautiful moment ruined because of this horrible being that I have here. I open the gate abruptly and I reach Leo who is sitting on the hammock.
<< What else do you want from me? Haven't I been clear enough? You have to disappear from my life once and for all. >> I say with tight teeth.
Control your anger, Emma. You can do this, he doesn't deserve any reaction from you.
<< Do you actually think I wouldn't have known?! That I wouldn't find out that after two days you were already making out with someone else, not just anyone, but Nick! knew it, I had to know from Seth, he followed you and he told me all the details. That makes me sick! >>
<< Do you realize what you're saying right now?! Followed by your lousy friends! You disgust me, what I do is none of your business, go away I have nothing more to say. >> I say disgusted.
<< Are you not ashamed of yourself?! >>
ME?! Now I'm really pissed.

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