How To Kill Love

Chapter 16- He's Back

It's been a few days ever since I decided to be independent in my own little way like not wait for Harith during orchestra practices. I also feel like he's ignoring me for some unknown reason that I just can't point out.  Anyway, why bother caring if he's brushing our friendship out?

"Hey Elly." A familiar voice echoed from the other side of my favorite hallway and snapped me back to reality. "Elly?"

"A-" I gulped as my eyes were in shock. "Ash?"
The marble chiseled walls made my voice echo as I avoided his gaze.

"Hey." Then he hugged me for the first time in years. "Can we hangout tomorrow? I have some errands to fix because I'm a month late since my parents decided to come back in Cebu. I'm in for a degree in medicine since my parents want me to become a physician in the medical field." 

I nodded as I was speechless to the person who destroyed me and made me in a way. His hazel eyes locked in mine's and it's like I'm trapped in those same eyes again.

No. No. No.

Ash Joren is back.

Then he ran down the ramp as if I agreed to meeting up with him. I admit I nodded but it was a reflex of my past self.

You see, my past self had a dream to be with Ash. He was my first love and I couldn't disagree with him more than loving. I also know that the book is a lie. I didn't move on or did I?

How can he just do this to me? Get my world back from me when he already tore it a part?

The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it.
The worst part is that I'm fine with it!

"Those same words came back as I accepted the fact that I was still willing to accept Ash in my life to find out whether or not I still wanted to be with him." I whispered to Darkness while I was still sober.

"You're getting drunk with all this love talk. You're lucky no one feisty enough is here to take advantage of that." Darkness replied with a sigh while offering a ride home.

My tears were mirroring every mistake I made as I tasted the bitterness of cold beer under the moonlight. Darkness has always been my confidant and Harith probably doesn't want to hear from me again. I will go to Harith's classroom in 2B tomorrow because I can't lose him too. "From the looks of it, you are torn between two people. One that seems more deserving and one that just came back to your life." Darkness said as he flipped the table cloth near him. "I don't know what your talking about. I'm not in some love triangle." I replied as I drank another sip from my whiskey bottle. "You seem scared to fall for someone new again like you want to kill love." Darkness said as he smirked at the lady that just entered the bar.

"Unsaon pag patay sa gugma? (How to kill love?)" I squealed as my eyes rolled more salty tears. "No one can kill love because we live with it everyday." Darkness gave a weak smile as he stared at my eyes, threatened by the cold. "I admit that having to kill uncountable people in my life, I can still sleep like a kitten and think love exists." He added as he took a shot of his favorite wine with tequila.