All the Things I Didn't Say

I need to let it out

"I feel like I wanna throw up, throw up everything that's holding me back"

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It was early in the morning, and I was in the car with my Mom. She was listening to music, while I was looking out the window. I felt sick, like I needed to throw up, then I started to feel sad.

A lot was on my mind and it felt so overwhelming. I didn't want to feel this way, anymore. I just wanted to let it all out, I needed to.

My Mom looked over at me, and asked if I was okay. "I'm fine", I lied. She wouldn't understand anyway, I thought. She would've told me to try meditating or yoga, then try to change the subject.