All the Things I Didn't Say

I hurt me

"You didn't hurt me, I hurt me"

__

I always blame him for breaking my heart, but he didn't.

I feel like I broke my own heart.

When I ignored the gut feeling that I had when it came to him, and lied to myself.

Lies that I started to slowly believe, lies that I kept telling myself over and over again.

Maybe the reason I was lying to myself was because I wanted to believe it, so bad.

I wanted it to be true, because in my head it all made sense.

Him and I made perfect sense.

What didn't make sense was, why he wasn't seeing what I was seeing

4/2/20