All the Things I Didn't Say

I hate being alive

"I don't care about people as much as I want them to care about me"

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I hate being alive.

I have friends.
They call me their friend, but I don't feel it. I don't feel the comfort that friendship supposedly brings. Aren't friends suppose to be like family, but what is family suppose to be like?

I feel alone, and whenever I try to express it I just get shut out. They ignore me, or change the subject.

What's the point of living if no one cares you're alive. I hate it.

I'm tired of being the girl that just needs a hug.

5/20/19