My New Life (Sebastian x Reader) - (FIXING ALL SPELLING, DIALOGUE, PUNCT)

Chaptet 15 - Anxiety

    We arrived to the other manor. It was a shade of yellow on the outside of it. We walked in and It looked small on the inside and huge on the outside. The decor was much different from the main manor. So were the disignes but I feel like I've been here before or I've seen this mansion before. "Could this be the manor that they were at during the Jack The Ripper case?" I wondered. "Hey Sebeastian, do you want any help with dinner?" I asked trying to take my mind off things. I had butterfly's swimming around in my stomach. "Why am I feeling this way?" I thought. I gave out a sigh. "No thank you (Your Name). I can take care of it by myself." I gave a sigh and nodded in acceptance. I knew I couldn't argue about it. "You can watch me though so you can start learning how I make Ciel's meals." Sebastian spoke. I smiled with happiness. "Thank you." I said. "Don't mention it." He replied. I followed him till we eventually got to the kitchen. 

   I started to watch him pull the ingredients out. It seemed he was making a devil's food cake. "How ironic." I thought. "My mom loves chocolates and sweets. So does my grandpa." I mentioned. "The funny thing is I've seen my mom make many cakes but Im still not sure on how to make one. It's simple and easy to make a cake I just never took the time to make one." He passed a smile to me. He started to crack the eggs into the bowl. Just as he was going to put the next ingredient in a bell started to ring that was in the kitchen. Sebastian gave out a sigh. "Why must he bother me when I'm busy?" He mumbled to himself. "I'll be right back." Then he exited the kitchen leaving me there with nothing but temptation to get a start on the cake.

   With a minute of staring at everything laid out on the counter I finally decided to work on the cake. I took a 1/2 of a cup of vinegar and pored it into the bowl and half of a cup of water. I pored the cake mix into the bowl and started to mix it. I eventually got all of the lumps out of the mix and it was ready. I took a small little poke at the mix in the bowl with my index finger and tried the cake mix. "I love cake. You would to mom." I mumbled to myself. "I think this could use chocolate chips." I thought. I searched all around the kitchen which felt like it took forever but I then found a jar of chocolate chips. I opened it up and started to drizzle chocolate chips onto the bowl of cake mix. I started to mix the cake mix again. As soon as I did Sebastian came in with a surprised look on his face. I didn't no what to say so I just gave him a blank stare. He walked of towards me and looked into the bowl. I was afraid of what his reaction might me but surprisingly a I saw a smile spear onto his face. "Thank you (Your Name). It seems you do know what you're doing. I also see you added chocolate chips. I didn't even know we had these lying around in the cabinets." I felt so happy by his response. I was a little proud of myself even though it was just mixing cake mix. I feel satisfied. "Thank you." A moment of silence finally hit the air. He was gone for at least twenty minutes but why? "Sebastian what did Ciel want?" He glanced over to me then back to the cake mix bowl again. "The young master was looking at more possible suspects for the killings in Brixton. Tomorrow we are going to the crime scene and look at the victim from yesterday's killing." I nodded. "He seemed so sure of himself today when we were at the bar talking to John and Phill. It looked like he was sure that they were the killers." He stiffened up at what I had said. He eventually loosened up and turned his gaze towards me. My heart started to race. "God, I hate when this happens. I hate it. I don't like the feeling of my heart racing to were it's going to pop." I thought. As I sat there flustered stuck in thought Sebastian spoke up knocking me out of the trans I was in. "Well, he acted that way because there honestly no one else who could have done it." I was surprised on what he had said. "Who else could it be then Sebastian? You said there were three suspects that it could only be." I said feeling a little more nervous then I was before. "The third suspect I wasn't able to actually identify. That's why we are going to look at the crime scene at hand but senses tell me ... It isn't human." All I could here was dead silence after Sebastian said that my heart was racing even faster and my stomach was shiftable in knots. I appeared to be calm on the outside but I was freaking out on the inside. "What does he mean not human? What if it's Jack? No, it can't be Jack. I refuse to believe someone as nice as him is the suspect. I can't be him. Can it? I don't want to believe he's the third suspect." Stuck in my thoughts Sebastian spoke up knocking me out of them. "Are you alright (Your Name)?" He asked as he put the cake he was finished messing with into the oven. He approached me with somewhat a conceded look on his face. "I'm fine. I think I'm going to pass on the cake and just go straight to bed for today." I rushed out the kitchen and down the hallway. Which felt like it gone on forever. I finally reached a stair way that lead to up stairs. I ran up the stairs and when I made it to the the top there was a window at the end of the hallway. I approached the window and gazed at the sun that was going down. watching the sun slowly going down took my mind off everything for a moment.

   I took a deep breathe and opened the door that was on the left of me. I walked in and there was a resemblance to this room and my room back at the manor. The only difference was that the covers and blankets of the bed were black and blue and the wall was a shade of black unlike my room were the walls were red and the sheets and covers to my bed were red and black. I crawled into bed and pulled the blanket over me. And stared out the window that was across from my bed. I just kept my stare out the window hoping I would fall asleep.    After an hour of just laying there in bed I finally started to give up on sleeping. I just started thinking to myself. The first thing that came to mind was the killings here in Brixton. That's when my heart started to race again. "No I can't keep thinking this way. I'll think about ... Sebastian." I thought. "He seemed to be the only thing holding me together. I wish I could hug him into an embrace again." I mumbled to myself. I crawled back under the covers and curled up into a ball. "I keep telling myself I won't get to close to him because I know it's never going to happen but I can't help but think of the possibilities that him and I could have. I guess if I were being truthful to myself I guess id have to say I love him but I don't want to love him. The Way he acts like he cares, and the way he knows how to make me feel better. When I first met him, I felt so excited, over powered, and adventurous. When we met, I kissed him. I wish I could do it again but o feel like myself again. I don't feel wild like I first met him." I gave out a sigh and flipped over to my other side. When I did I saw someone laying there right next to me. I jumped put of bed with my heart racing. "Calm down (Your Name). It's just me." I heard Jack. He jumped put of bed and approached me. My heart started to beat even faster. "(Your Name) are you okay? Why do you get so nervous when I'm around you?" He asked. I didn't know how to respond. When he finally was only an inch close to me I stiffened up preparing for what he might do buy then he put his hands on my waist and started tickling me. I couldn't help but start laughing and struggling to get his hands off me. "Haha, Jack stop!" I said full of laughter. "It doesnt sound like you want me to." Jack added. I tried to escape him but I ended up leaning my back flat onto the bed. Once I ended up like that he ended up stopping and he playfully pinned my hands to the bed. He was almost on top of me. He was just hovering over me. My heart began to race again. "See, smile! I love seeing happy like your usual self." He said joyfully. "I loved seeing Jack this way. Earlier today he was acting different but now hes acting like his happy playful self." I thought. He started to move his hands to my cheeks caressing them and he brought his face in close. "Woah Jack, what are you doing?" I asked starting to get fidgety. "Something I've been wanting to do since the first day I met you." He whispered. "He was going to kiss me." I thought. I didn't fight it. His lips were only an inch away but before he could kiss me I heard the door open to my room. My heart began to pound and before I knew it Jack was no longer on top of me nor was he in my room.

Hope You Enjoyed This Chapter! I Simply Loved This Chapter And Im Already In Love With The Next Chapter! Sorry I Didnt Post This Yesterday. I Forgot To xD Anyways Guys See You Guys In The Next Chapter, "Chapter 16 - His Feelings, And His Rival"

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