My New Life (Sebastian x Reader) - (FIXING ALL SPELLING, DIALOGUE, PUNCT)

Chapter 23 - Bad Girl?

   This pain was absolutely worse then the pain I was feeling from being impaled with the blade. It was as if my insides were tearing at each other. Reforming into something different. Which could only mean that Sebastian was in the process of tearing at my sole. Which also means, I still have my humanity.    Darkness and pain, is all I could see and feel. My heart was beating fast, tears were pouring from my eyes, blood from my mouth. "I can't do anything about it. I'll just have to wait until it's over but what happens after all is said and done? My passion, my emotions .... will be gone. I wont feel any of it anymore. What's it going to be like? I've always imagined what my life would be like without emotions. I feel like it wouldn't be a bad thing at this point but I'll be ... Expressionless ... Oh god I'll be Claude with boobs." I chuckled lightly trying to take my mind off the pain. I looked at my stomach noticing my wound fading away slowly. "What is ... this feeling?" I stood up off the ground and started to walk further into the darkness surrounding me. I'm afraid of the dark but at this point I can't let it bother me. I feel if someone else is here. "Ghh." I grunted falling to my knees. I wasn't feeling the pain anymore. I could only feel my heart racing dramatically. I could feel the blood rushing through my veins, with my head on the verge of exploding. Holding onto my head, I started to scream in ageniee.    I started to hear Sebastian's voice go through my head. "I'm almost done, milady." He spoke. His voice didn't do much for me. If anything it made the thumping in my head worse. "Se..Sebastian! Please, make it stop! What's happening!?" I yelled. I opened my eyes, to see my past and present swimming around me. Not just mine. Sebastian's past and present as well. I could feel Sebastian in me. We were one. I could feel him coursing through my veins. The pain was no longer there. "Sebastian ... Is it over?" I thought. "Almost, you're at the last step." I walked around, in an endless line of records. Seeing my ninth birthday party, my first day of school, and the people I have encountered in my life. All the good and bad times appearing before me. I looked over to see Sebastian's records there. I reached in to touch one that seemed to be Betty and Sebastian in the frame. Before I was just about to touch it I heard Sebastian speak up. "I wouldn't touch it if I were you. If you touch it, you'll see what happened to me. Are you sure you'd like to see it? You didn't take it very well when I told you." I stopped my hand as he said that. Thinking about whether I should or not. "It doesn't matter anymore. I'm dead on the inside now anyways." I answered. I reached into grasp it. Everything around me went white but then, a pretty scene appeared before me. The sun was shining, the breeze was blowing. It felt like it was the middle of summer or maybe late spring. A house surrounded by trees and beautiful tulips. I saw a pretty girl standing at the door step of the house. An old wooden cabin to be specific. The door creaked open, With Sebastian standing there welcoming her in. I walked in right after her and took a seat on the floor next to the door. The kitchen was literally there as soon as you walked in. Sebastian pulled out a chair for her to sit in. He sat right next to her. "Hello Betty I'm Sebastian's mother Tracy, and this is my husband Carl." Tracy spoke. "Honey I can introduce myself. Sorry I'm Carl." Carl said in annoyance. "Please Mom, Dad, not now." Sebastian said rolling his eyes. Betty still had a joyful look on her face. "I see , Sebastian's parents both have black hair, red eyes, and a beautiful complexion. You seem to look more like your father." I thought. "It's a pleasure to meet you both." Betty smiled so brightly. Sebastian got out of his chair and picked up the nicely rearranged plates full of food and placed them down before all of them. "This looks great." Betty commented. The family smiled to her compliment.    They all ate in silence. "You're still here watching this arnt you?" I thought seeing if Sebastian was sitting here with me. "Yes, I'm still here." He replied. "So Betty, how long have you and my boy been together? I've heard great things about you." Carl asked sitting his silverware down. "Awhile now, almost a year. He's amazing. You guys must be proud." I looked over to young Sebastian. He had a huge smile on his face. Not a smile that had evil written all over it, a smile that was full of joy. "What a bright smile you have Sebastian. Almost as bright as Ciel's." I thought. He didn't say anything. I was happy for Sebastian for the moment being. He must miss this. Everyone was smiling and enjoying there meal. That was until loud banging noises started to come from behind me. I jumped up and ran into the other room peeking into the kitchen watching it all. "Tracy open up this god dam door! We need to talk!" Tracy jumped out of her chair and fell to the floor. The door flew open, with an angry man coming through it. The man grabbed the collar of Tracy's shirt, lifting her off the ground. She looked petrified. "You make me spend tuns of money on you then you leave me after doing so! Why is that?" He asked lifting her even higher off the ground. "Hey, let her go!" Sebastian yelled. The man threw Tracy to the floor, leaving Carl to rush to her. The man approaching Sebastian then slapping him. "You shut the fuck up." The man said in response. "Stop!" Betty shouted. "You're next if you don't keep your mouth shut." He took a knife out of his left pocket holding it up to Tracy's neck. "I'm done with your bullshit Tracy. You want to rob me all of my money just so you can have fun? Well you can pay for it right here, right now." He slashed his knife at her neck, watching the life leave her body. "No!" Sebastian yelled trying to rush over to tackle him but was stopped by Betty. Carl, trying to fend for himself but meeting the same fate Tracy did. Sebastian looked over to Betty with tears streaming down his face. "I'm so sorry..." He whispered. She nodded. "You're next." He pointed his knife towards Betty, rushing towards her but instead of her getting stabbed, it was Sebastian. "Run!" He grunted as he was stabbed and ran she did. Past me and out the back door of the cabin. The man rushing passed me as well. I approached Sebastian kneeling down on the floor staring down at him in pain. Just as I was just moments before. "Huh, history does repeat itself doesn't it? Thinking about it, you took a knife for her and I took a blade for you." I mumbled. I stared down at him chuckling. "How weak you look. How weak you must feel." My eyes widened at what I had said. I covered my mouth. "Sebastian I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to say that." I thought. "Hmm, it seems that your emotions are fading away, you're not even in the slightest bit effected by the scene you just witnessed. It seems that you've become untamed. Which means..." My eyes widened, I then loosened up. I started to laugh. "What a pathetic and waste of my time. Sebastian, I think we are done here." I said keeping a huge grin on my face. "Yes it's time. Taking away your emotions has brought out your bad side, this can't be good." He spoke. I roles my eyes. "No, I feel free. This is probably the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. Nothing holding me back now." I could feel Sebastian's regret coursing through me which made me smile even more. I started to laugh. The scene around me started to disappear, bringing me back to the darkness. I could feel myself blacking out, I fell to the ground falling asleep, without even knowing it.