My New Life (Sebastian x Reader) - (FIXING ALL SPELLING, DIALOGUE, PUNCT)

Chapter 25 - A Demon's Stroll

Sebastian's POV    

She walked away from me as if I were just some stranger. I had a hard time comprehending what just happened. "She ... doesn't feel that way anymore. She left me with my emotions, and she came back without hers." A smirk grew on my face. I could feel a trail of darkness beaming off me as I started to catch up with her. "I won't let you get away that easily. The game has just only started. If I couldn't get you to be the same way you were before then what kind of butler would I be?" I thought as I tried to keep myself from going on a rampage. 

Your POV 

Seeing him this way made me want to laugh incredibly hard. You might as well call me the Undertaker, but I still kept still, and emotionless. Sebastian and I walking side by side, approaching Ciel and Elizabeth who were eating the Victoria Sponge Cake. Even the other servants were going at it. "I need to head out tonight. Explore, and have a good time. I feel great I might as well treat myself." I thought as a smile appeared on my face. Sebastian looked at me as If he were curious to what I was smiling about. "(Your Name), this cake taste wonderful!" Elizabeth said as she stood up and glared at me with sparkling eyes. "Thanks." I said with a shrug. I looked off to the side to see a carriage with Paula standing on the outside of it. "Lizzie, it's getting late. I think you should retire for the evening." Ciel spoke, standing up gripping her hand. She looked at him with disagreement but she nodded with acceptance. "(Your Name), will you walk me to my carriage?" She asked letting go of Ciel's hand and grabbing mine. I looked over to Ciel and he was shocked. Even I was a bit shocked she would pick me over Ciel but I wasn't going to look into it. "Of course, Lizzie." I said with a smile. I walked her over and helped her in. I was going to shut the door but she held it open and stared at me seriously. "Lady Elizabeth?" I could hear Paula question her from inside the carriage. "(Your Name) you seem to be acting differently. If there is anything you want to talk about you can talk to me. I'm here for you. I just want you to know that." She let go of the carriage door and sat across from Paula with her going back to her regular self. As if she never had changed moods.    My chest started to tighten. I closed the door of the carriage and started to slowly walk back to Ciel and Sebastian. "What just happened?" I wondered. I could feel my heart race speed up a bit. "Anxiety? No it can't be that. Why is my heart acting differently? Am I feeling again? No, I won't let one little act of kindness get the best of me." I thought. I approached Sebastian and Ciel. They seemed to be mumbling about something but I wasn't quite sure on what. I couldn't help but be curious. I would have asked but it wasn't my job to ask questions. They stopped mumbling as soon as they knew I was close enough to hear them. Ciel looked at me, getting ready to speak and Sebastian was looking at me with a devious grin. "What is he up to now?" I wondered. "(Your Name), I'm retiring for the day." He started to walk away from Sebastian and I. We watched him walk all the way there till he was no longer in our sights. We then stared at each other, still with him grinning. "Why so happy?" I asked taking the picnic basket out of his hand. "No particular reason but, I am quite curious to what was happening to you back there moments ago." I rolled my eyes biting my tongue a bit. "He knows exactly what was happening. Hes just being a dick." I thought. "I don't know what you're talking about." I said walking away from him. As I did I couldn't get that devious grin out of my mind. As if it were haunting me. "What is he planning?" I thought as I trailed off back to the manor. ~ Later ~    I slipped on a pair of jeans, a t-shirt, and my sneakers. I fixed my hair a bit, grabbed a candle, and lit it with a match. I creaked open my bedroom door and peaked out to see if anyone was in the hall. Just as I expected, no one was. Ciel should be in his room fast asleep and Sebastian should be in the library, preparing for what needs to be done tomorrow. I walked out and shut the door so quietly and as slowly as I could to avoid any sound. I took every step with caution down the hallway. Holding a candle tightly in my left hand to shine light onto the stair way, when I made it down the steps I gave out a small sigh of relief. Knowing I had made it through without making a sound brought my mind at ease. That was until my candle's small wavering flame went out and the grip of a hand on my shoulder. My body jerked away from the hand on my shoulder and I ended up falling onto the floor. I helplessly started to look around into the darkness trying to find or see what was there moments ago. Then a pair of red eyes and a smile appeared only inches from my face. "For a demon, you still get scared over the smallest things and for someone who likes the dark you can't see in it very well." Sebastian said with a chuckle. I gave out a sigh and hanged my head to were my hair was covering my face like a curtain. Sebastian's hands tucked my hair behind my ears having me make eye contact with him once again. I put my hand over my chest. It began to tighten again, with my heart racing again. "Dammit Sebastian." I mumbled. "What's the problem?" He asked gripping my hands helping me up. "Nothing I'm fine." I mumbled as I put my hand over my chest making my way over to the door. I grabbed the handle but I didn't open the door. I looked behind me to see Sebastian following close behind. "Sebastian, arnt you busy?" I asked turning to face him. "No, I'm done for now. Everything is set for tomorrow but I am quite curious to what you might be doing at this late hour." He said as he held his index finger over his lips and his thumb under his chin. "I'm going out to buy myself a suit, or something like that. I'd prefer not to wear a dress." I said then an awkward silence hit the air. I didn't want Sebastian to come with me but it didn't look like I had a choice. So Sebastian and I exited the manor and set out on our walk.     The night was bright, and the wind was blowing. We walked in silence. "I want to say something. I want to talk, I don't know why. Usually I like to keep quiet but, I ... dont know. Why am I even thinking this way? I need to stay sharp and quiet." I thought. "Where is it you plan on going?" Sebastian asked looking down at me. I didn't even know much myself on to wear I was going. All I knew was that I was going to explore and see what London has to offer. "I ... don't know actually. I just planned on exploring. I'm actually glad you decided to come with me. Since Jack isn't around anymore I don't have anyone to hangout with." I said. I looked up at him and his slight smile had disappeared from his face as I said that. "His silly emotions." I thought. "Hmm, I see." He answered.   We made it into town. Some people were still out at this late hour chatting amongst themselves. I walked down the side of the road passing all the shops with Sebastian following me close behind. We ended up making it to the same shop that Lizzie took me to get a dress. There were nice suits there as well. Surprisingly it was still open. When I walked in the little bell on the door of the place rang, greeting us. "Hello ma'am. Back again I see! How can I help you on this fine night?" He asked resting his hand on his hip. "I'm looking for a nice suit, or well, a tail coat preferably." I said clasping my hands together. "I have just the thing." He spoke, as he walked into that back room I was in when I visited with Elizabeth not to long ago. "(Your Name), I'm curious. You say that you don't feel anything." Sebastian spoke. I turned around to face him with a smile. "That is right! Absolutely nothing." I reassured him. "Then why are y--" He was cut off by the salesman rushing my way with a beautiful tail coat, with a nice pair of pants to go with it. It even had a perfect bow tie. I was full of excitement. "I love it! I'll take it." I snatched it from his hand and gave it to Sebastian to hold. Sebastian threw him a sack of coins. His eyes began to sparkle to the bag of coins that came his way. "Good doing business with you!" He spoke, then me and Sebastian exited the store.   I just kept walking with pep in each step. It had started to rain but that didn't stop me from being happy and lost in thought. That was until it started to thunder. I stopped dead in my steps when I saw the Undertaker's up ahead. Memories of the first night I came into this world started to come back to me. My chest tightened again. I backed up a bit falling to the ground as I tripped on a rock. I looked behind me and Sebastian wasn't there. "Where did he go?" I wondered. The rain got thicker. It surrounded me, just like that thick darkness surrounding me days ago. Days ago, the pain. The suffocating darkness, I remember it all. I stood up from the ground, shivering a bit. "I didn't think demons could get cold." I stated as I secured myself, with my arms holding me tight. I kept pushing myself to move forward. I had passed the undertakers, but my memories kept repeating in my head. I stopped and glance at the undertakers wiping the water off my face as best as I could. "The night I first appeared here. It was raining just like this. I remember sitting here sleeping. Terrified, not knowing what to do. Then I remember, Sebastian standing there in front of me, looking over me. I remember ever single detail of that night." I thought. I walked into one of the alleyways leaning against the wall coughing. My heart was racing. Thinking about all those things, it was getting into my head. I took slow easy breathes. Facing the brick wall, leaning my head onto the wall having both hands around my stomach. That was until someone else seemed to put there arms around my stomach. A whisper hitting my ear. "Remember?" He whispered. I loosened up, lifting my head off the wall. He turned me to face him. His hands caressing my cheeks. Then him rubbing my hair back to get it out of my face. His hair, sticking to his face with water dripping from it, he was soaked but I couldn't help but look at him and admire him. "I don't know what to do." I thought. Sebastian and I stared at each other, with the rain pouring down on us. "Remember all of it? You can't forget it. It will haunt you but, I'm here. To help you, hang out with you, if that's what you call it." He said smirking, with both his hands gripping my shoulders. I clutched my hands turning them into fists, my heart was racing. I was on the verge of giving in. He leaned his face in but I turned my face to the side. "Sebastian... No..." I mumbled. I looked at him again getting ready for his protest. "Let me ask you this then. If you supposedly don't care anymore why are you still here, working, at the manor? There's nothing stopping you from leaving." He said smirking. My eyes widened. I was speechless at that point.