My New Life (Sebastian x Reader) - (FIXING ALL SPELLING, DIALOGUE, PUNCT)

Chapter 32 - A Blissful Kiss

 I opened my eyes and stared up at the ceiling. I slept again. Even though I didn't have to. I sat up and stretched my arms over my head. The last few weeks had been slow. Ciel and I had been hanging out a bit more. I've avoided Sebastian for quite sometime. We've had small talk and hes tried to get closer but I've been drifting from him ever since that time with Ciel. It wasn't that I was trying to be but I had to tell him what happened. He deserves to know. " How am I going to tell him? Will he hate me? Will it change the story at all? With me here the story probably has changed a bit but, If I were to mess something up it could affect the story. I wonder, If I were to never be here, would Jack still be alive?" I thought. I was puzzled. At the moment I couldn't keep thinking. My insides were tearing at each other. I was hungry. Its been happening more and more as time passed. I got out of bed and held onto my stomach. I walked over to my closet and grabbed onto my tail coat. I looked out my window. I couldn't see much since it was kinda dark but the sky was lightening up. It definitely was morning by what I could see. Sometimes I missed waking up to the sun in the morning. It was winter time so the sun would always come up in later hours. I slowly walked away from my window and made my way to the door. 
   When I opened it I peeked out to see if anyone else was around. I was wearing a tank top and sweat pants. I was to always stay sharp in front of others. I didn't want anyone to see me this way. I stepped out and closed the door. "I wish that my phone charger would have came along with my cloths. I still cant put my finger on that. How did all my stuff transport here anyway? I didn't even know how I came here. Maybe it was destiny?" I thought but I brushed off that thought. I finally made it to the bathroom. When I opened the door, Sebastian was there half dressed. He had a towel around his waist and he was currently drying his hair with a towel. Once he looked up he looked a little surprised then he smirk putting his hands on his hips. "Are you enjoying the view?" He asked giving me a stare. He gave a small chuckle. I didn't know why I was just standing there staring at him but, I never really seen him this way. I never even knew he took showers. "I'm so sorry!" I looked down at the floor. I took in a deep breathe and tried to keep things from getting to weird. "I should have went to another bathroom." I thought.He seemed calm about it. Even joyful about it. "Ill just be waiting outside." I spoke. I turned around and headed out closing the door behind me. I gave out a sigh and I brushed my bangs back. "God, I should have knocked ... I don't regret it though." I thought giving out a laugh. I was laughing a bit more then I should have been. A tear came out of my eye. "I'm so glad I got up this morning." I thought. The door opened and Sebastian came out fully dressed with the towels he was using hanging from his arm. "Are you alright?" He asked. I chuckled a bit and nodded. "Yeah sorry. You should really put a lock on that door." I spoke. "Really? I'm glad I didn't." And with that he walked away. "Whats that supposed to mean?" I asked. He turned his head a bit and put his finger up to his lips. He then continued walking away. 
   I took a deep breathe in and walked into the bathroom closing the door. "I should have just found a different bathroom." I started to strip down. I looked into the mirror and gave out a sigh. "That was the longest and most joyful small talk I've had with him in the last few weeks. I need to straighten things out. I cant keep doing this." I thought. I turned on the shower. I got in quickly. The water was cold but it didn't really affect my skin. It used to. The water quickly warmed up moments later. I turned towards the water and let it hit my face. I couldn't help but just stand there and let the warm water hit me. It was relaxing. I loved taking showers. They were always relieving. 
   I washed my hair and my body. Once I was done I turned the water off and stepped out of the shower onto the towel that was placed onto the floor. I grabbed the towel and wrapped it around myself. I looked in the mirror and looked at my complexion. "No pimples, zits, or black heads. How? Is it because its an anime world or is it because I'm a demon? I have noticed my face has been clearing up since I've been here. Huh, oh well. Im not complaining." I thought giving out a laugh. I looked around the sink for my cloths but they were no where to be found. I looked behind the toilet just in case I was stupid enough to place them there and not remember. I looked all over the bathroom. The bathroom wasn't that big so after a bit of searching I knew for a fact that they weren't here. Then I realized, "Sebastian ... you asshole!" I spoke. I rewrapped the towel around myself to make sure it was tight. I approached the door and creaked it open. I peeked to see if anyone was in the hallway. I was pissed at the moment. I just wanted to find my cloths and get dressed before anyone seen me this way. I walked to my room and when I tried to open the door the knob wouldn't budge much. "He locked my door. God dammit Sebastian." I thought. I clenched onto the knob and twisted it so hard that the knob came off without me even trying. My door swung open easily. Who stood there at the end of my bed with my tail coat was no other than Sebastian. I placed the knob back into the hole and walked into my room shutting the door behind me. The door didn't close correctly but that didn't bother me at the moment. "You asshole!" I yelled as I held onto my shoulders making an 'x' with them trying to hide my chest. My boobs were covered but I still didn't like the fact I wasn't wearing any clothing. "Give me my cloths." I commanded. I tried to reach them but he placed his hand on my shoulder and used his other hand to hold my tail coat as far away as possible from me. "Sebastian, why are you doing this?" I asked taking his hand off my shoulder. "I want to ask you a question." He said losing his smirk. "Why cant you ask me with my cloths on?" I walked passed him and rushed to my dresser but he blocked it off from me. I gave out a sigh and crossed my arms. "Because I knew if I didn't put you in a situation like this you would have answered." He spoke. "Uh, fine. Hurry up and ask. Id like to have cloths on." He nodded stepping a bit closer to me and of course I stepped back. "Why have you been avoiding me?" He asked. The hairs on my arms started to stand up. "What do you mean? I haven't been avoiding you." I stated. I tried to make it look as convincing as I could. "Your lying has improved alot since the last time but its still not good enough to get passed me." He said giving off a small smile. I bit my bottom lip then spoke up. "Sebastian, I don't want to talk about this right now. Please, let me have my cloths." I spoke. He approached me with his hand out with my cloths. I stepped a little forward and reached for my cloths but instead of that, Sebastian pulled my cloths back and used his other hand to grab mine pulling me towards him.
   "S-Sebastian! What are you doing? Let me go!" I demanded. He had his arm around my waist. I was strong but I wasn't strong enough to get out of his grip. While struggling my towel was loosening up a bit but thats when I stopped fighting and held up my towel. "Looks like you are in quite a predicament. It seems your towel is falling. What a shame it would be if it were to be tugged off." He spoke looking me in the eye. My heart was racing. "Sebastian! No, please don't." I begged. He just smirked. He threw my cloths onto the bed and he wrapped his other arm around me. I didn't like being this close to Sebastian like this. "Okay I wont, if you tell me why you are being so distant." He spoke placing his hand under my chin and holding my chin with his thumb. "Fine, Sebastian you have to promise me though that you wont take this the wrong way." I asked. I didn't want things to be ruined over something so silly. "You have my word my dear." I nodded and thought for a moment. I didn't know how to make it sound. The way that I was going to say it was the most blunt way I could put it. "Sebastian, the day of Ciel's birthday ... when I was taking him to bed something ... happened..." I trailed off and I started to think about that night. I almost wish it didn't happen but I didn't regret that it happened. Ciel and I have never been closer friends and he seems just a little bit better then before. "I need to stop pausing. Sebastian needs to know the truth." I thought. I looked up at Sebastian pairing his eyes up with mine. "Sebastian, that night Ciel kissed me." I said with a firm tone. His eyes widened and his smile faded. He didn't look angry but I could tell he was enraged. "Sebastian, please don't put this out on Ciel." He stayed silent. "I've been distant because I've been trying to find the courage and the way to tell you because I didn't know how to tell you." I looked down at the ground with my eyes shut. I was afraid of what was going to happen next. Thats when I felt A hand go to my cheek and made head had risen. A pair of lips met mine. I didn't know what to do. I was shocked. I didn't expect him to do it in response. "Don't worry about it (Your Name). I'm not angry." He spoke. "Sebastian you have to promise me that you wont tell Ciel I told you. Just don't mention it to him." I requested. "It doesn't matter how many times he kisses you. I know every single one is meaningless. I am yours (Your Name). I know you did it because you had no other choice." He spoke. It warmed my heart to know that he trusted me. "I had a choice but at this point it wouldn't have mattered. It still didn't change the fact that he kissed me." I thought. "Now, I expect to see you today, and this time, I expect you to be around me always then leaving." He let go of me and walked passed me. I watched Sebastian leave the room. He seemed a bit angry but he accepted the problem that had happened. "Thank god thats over. I'm glad I can bring myself to be around Sebastian now."
   I picked up my tail coat that was lying on the bed. I started to get dressed and cleaned myself up. I dried my hair with my towel making sure it was completely dry before I started brushing through it. Once I was done with that I headed out for Sebastian. I knew that It wasn't quite time for Sebastian to wake Ciel so I might as well take this time to talk with him and be around him. I also need to give Daniel a call some time later and plan something. I need to get everything set up. I had something small planned for Sebastian as well but first I had to get a hold of Daniel.
   I walked down grand stair case and went to the kitchen. I had a feeling Sebastian would be there because he usually prepares breakfast for Ciel and its usually done as soon as hes ready to be awoken. When I entered the kitchen I was proven correct. He appeared to be making pancakes with fresh chopped strawberries and freshly picked blueberries. You would think since Ciel likes chocolate he would make chocolate pancakes. "I see you prepared yourself." Sebastian spoke without even glancing at me. His back was facing me. He was facing the stove and cooking. I nodded. I didnt really know what to say to Sebastian. After everything that just happened I was hoping things could go back to normal. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist, resting my head on his back. "Hmm? Well you surprised me." He spoke. I was a bit confused on what he meant by that. "What do you mean?" I asked. He gave out a silent chuckle. He covered his mouth while doing so. "Why doesn't he laugh out loud?" I wondered. "Usually I am the one to hold onto you. Not the other way around." As he said that he spun around and peered into my face. "What? Am I not aloud to?" I asked jokingly. "Its not that its just you usually don't do this. Whats the catch?" He asked. I gave out a sigh and wrapped my arms around his neck hugging him. "I just ... I feel like I haven't been this close to you in the longest time. I missed you ... Sebastian." He held onto my tight around the waist. "Sebastian, do you still love me?" I whispered under my breathe. I didn't know what was what anymore. I can never indicate what Sebastian is feeling or thinking. Its impossible. I looked him into the eyes. "That isnt a very smart question." I was confused. "Is he trying to say I'm dumb?" I wondered but before I could think about it just a little bit more he leaned in and kissed me. "So, he does love me still?" I wondered. "I will always love you." He whispered into my ear. "Even if there are bumps in the road ahead." He added. I couldn't help but smile. I looked him dead in the eyes. I didn't know what to say. I felt a chill of doubt go down my spine though. I gave out a sigh. "I find it hard to believe him." 
   I released him and backed away. "Well... I'm going to leave you to it then." I spoke. I turned around and started to head for the kitchen door but a tug on the collar of my tail coat prevented me from exiting. I turned around, "Yes?" I asked. Sebastian had a look of displeasure on his face. "You don't believe me do you?" I bit my lip. "What makes you say that Sebastian?" I asked. "I can hear it in your voice." He pointed out. "Does he really pay this much attention to me. My appearance, my actions, my voice. What else does he watch?" I wondered. He approached me, grabbing my right hand. He took my glove off. He hold my hand in both of his, examining it. "This seal ... was the cause of me. Your hand stained by evil such as myself. Quite funny really. In the beginning, I wasn't quite sure why you were here. I wasn't even sure why I brought you in. At first I thought I could use you for extra protection for the young master but, that first night, you surprised me. You peeked my interest. I think I kept you around because you sparked my interest. You definitely made working here just a little bit better. And later in time, we had are moments I guess you could say. I tried to keep my distance because I notice I started to change. In a way that, I've never felt before. In my many years of living, no one has did it like you. I thought my only purpose and desire was to devour souls. Until, you came along. You showed me the loyalty know one else would have given me at times. You risked giving up your life to save mine. Until you came along (Your Name), I've never felt more alive and important. You gave me a little bit of my humanity. You are my purpose (Your Name). I'm hear to be with you and make something out of myself with you. All my years, I've been heartless and sadistic. Not that I'm saying I'm not anymore but, you definitely changed my pathetic existence. Im just glad that I brought you in. Otherwise, Id be missing out on the greatest thing in my existence. I love you (Your Name) and you better believe it." He said. I was absolutely speechless. "I've never been this attracted to Sebastian in my life." I thought. I placed my hands on his cheeks and kissed him. He kissed back with passion. I pulled back. "Sebastian, why do you do this to me?" I asked. "What do you mean?" He asked with a smirk. "How do you make me love you even more than usual. How do you make everything I would usually think a reality? Loving you this way hurts Sebastian because If I wear to lose you one day, It would be so hard to let go. Sebastian when I came here, I had no meaning. I myself didn't have a purpose, and you gave me one. I as well kept myself away from you. I just, I-I-" He cut me off with another kiss. This one being much more rough and passionate than the one before. 
   When he pulled away he smirked. "I could stay like this forever with you but, we must serve the young master." He spoke. I nodded. "Ill way him up. I assume that breakfast will be done by the time I get Ciel ready." I made my way to the door. "Yes, bring him to his study as soon as you prepare him." I nodded and exited the kitchen making my way to Ciel's room. On the way there I kept thinking about what had happened moments before. "God I love being me." I told myself. I felt free and happy. There wasn't a day that passed by that wasn't exciting. There hasn't been a day thats passed that I hadn't loved even during the bad times. I loved an adventure and thats exactly what this was. It was a world that I've craved for. Being here I havnt wanted to go back. What if I were to magically go back to my world? What would I do?" Fear overcame me for a moment. Thinking about it scared the shit out of me. "What if..." I thought and then trying to erase the thought I opened Ciel's door. Approaching the curtains and letting the light shine down on him. His eyes squinted as I opened it. His reaction was to hide under his blanket which I thought was adorable. "Good Morning, Master."

I Hope You Liked This Chapter I Thought It Was Absolutley Adorable. I Loved Each And Every Part Of This Chapter! It Was So Cute! XD But Let Me Hear Your Thoughts And BTW Let Me Know If I Ever Write The Characters Out Of Character Because I Want Them To Be As Close To Their Original Selves As Possible So If I Need Improvement On Some Things Let Me Know! And Ill See You In The Next Chapter!! "Chapter 33 - A Trip To Daniels'"

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