Love Song (LGBTQ+) (COMPLETED)

59. Crosser

"I don't remember anything after his orgasm. I think I passed out or something. . ." I began to trail off without thinking, entirely uncertain of how I was even going to put why I didn't want to call the cops into words.

I looked up and felt my head make a full one-eighty across the room as I scanned everything in my line of sight. The entire courtroom remained in dead silence as I lost my words and the will to speak in front of all the strangers glaring at my every movement. As strong as I tried to stay for my mom, Chris, and every other person who'd gotten me this far, it was becoming clearer and clearer that this was my limit. I wasn't strong enough on my own to keep going like this. I was frozen in place once again, unable to say a word.

The fact of the matter was that Chris was going easy on me, and Jeremiah wasn't going to be as nice. His job was to make me look incompetent, that my judgement and views were invalid because I was drugged and my memory of being raped was patchy. Even if the video destroyed any argument he had, it was his job to tear me down. I knew I wasn't going to be able to handle that, but what was I going to do to the people who worked so hard to get here? Not just Chris or my mom, not just Rylee, but everyone who put hard work and time into this trial. Was I going to run away again? Could I let them all down and live with myself afterwards?

"Okay, I think that's enough of that." Chris tapped the stand lightly with his fingertips. "Once again, why were the police never called? Logically speaking, if his semen was inside of you, then wasn't that all the proof you needed? All you had to do was go to the hospital or the police and get the proper tests done."

"I. . .Who was going to believe me? He was a star quarterback and I was a gay freak. He was the most famous person in Ely and I was consistently buried in mediocrity. It only got worse when I remembered that his dad is like the only judge in Ely. I felt like anywhere I went, it would've been swept under the rug because he was the Devin Herrera." I let my left hand slowly crawl up and brush my hair back as my right hand began to tremble again without the added weight of my other hand on top of it. "I couldn't take the judgement or people questioning every last word that left my mouth. I was scared of being raped all over again. I know I was wrong thinking like that now, but it didn't seem like it then. "

Chris turned to his right with a heavy exhale and began to head towards the jury once more. "Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, now that you've heard the victim herself speak up and reiterate what must have been an absolutely terrifying experience for her, I would like to direct your attention to the screen above."

Turning back around, Chris looked at the screen from the same angle as the jury, as it began to turn itself on. Just like that day in the meeting room, I was given the sight of that same video, only slightly blurred and on a larger screen for everyone to see. Chris pressed a button on that same silver remote he'd been carrying around for what felt like most of my time on the stand and let the video begin to play. Naked and censored on the ground, his hands began to run up my back, falling to the sides of my torso just as he reached my chest.

Pausing the video, Chris looked to the judge and then to the jury. "What was the first thing she said about the rape? He started running his hands around her back and began to grope her breasts. What does he appear to be doing here?"

Using the remote once more, the video began to play again for everyone to see. Just like the first time I had watched the video, his hands slipped down again and disappeared for short moment before reappearing and meeting my back once more. Just before the clapping of skin contact and a grunt passed through the speakers, three words could be heard from them. The three words I had mentioned earlier. 'Christ, that's tight.' hissed its way through the courtroom speakers for every person watching and listening. That was when another pause came to the video.