Dreamed And Forgotten ( Connor Ball / The Vamps Fanfiction)

Chapter 25 - Home Alone

Emily's P.O.V-

It had been 4 days since they left. Four horrible miserable days of moping around with nothing to do. it was weird not having the boys around they were our life now . The ups the downs we had been through it together and as a group. We hadn't done a twitter cam with the boys yet or confirmed that we were dating but already we were getting hate and death threats by so called "fans". We tried to keep it under control but It was to difficult , if we blocked an account they would just make a new one and send it us through that. It was like a tiny rumour set this off , it was true but to them it could just be that a rumour . The past few days and through the duration of boys on tour me, Laura, Kiran and aisha are staying in their flat so that we can all be together and spend time with each other without the journey of a car. it was now like the journey of a room.

Josh came over most days to spend time with us. He was the only one we could cry and be moody in front of and the only one who could understand why. Josh would come over early in the morning, mostly when we were all asleep and make us breakfast. He would sometimes have to drag us out of bed or remind us that there were certain things that we needed to do that day. He was really friendly to us even though most days we probably put him through hell. He had no work while the boys were away as they were all working on a song together and it wasn't finished and as the boys liked to put an input in as well the song had been put on hold while they were on tour.

Today was no exception and I woke up to the sound of keys unlocking the door and the door opening. I knew it was only josh and tried to go back to sleep. This was very hard with Aisha snoring and Laura constantly Turing over and shuffling around in the shared bed with kiran. Kiran was the only sane one who could actually sleep properly but even she had a cold and every 10 minutes there would be a sniff that could make the equivalent noise to an earthquake.

I eventually got up after I had enough of the pigs in the room and found josh in the kitchen. I probably looked like crap right then, by my estimate I had mascara under my eyes like I hadn't slept for days when in fact that was all I had been doing, hair like I had been on a rollercoaster or dragged through a bush backwards and stood there in my pyjama's. He was used to it and this was how it usually was.

"Hi em" his brown eyes turning towards my direction. Josh was a attractive boy and if I wasn't so in love with Connor I would definitely find him attractive. He had dark brown hair which complimented his tanned face and brown eyes well. He was quite tall probably six foot but could never beat Tristan. I squinted from the sun at the window and answered him

"Hey josh what are we doing today?"

"Well I was thinking we could all go out somewhere maybe the park by my place but I need to go back to my place first"

"ok do I need to tell the girls to get out of bed or shall I say the pigs"

He chuckled to himself as I sat down and poured myself some orange juice. We sat there for a few minutes at the breakfast bar while he looked out the window and around the room but never at me. This was weird he wouldn't make eye contact with me he just kept his eyes off me. I tried to make conversation with him but after me mentioning the girls he just seemed to turn off like he didn't want them to come with us and he just wanted me and him. It was weird he was good friends with the others.

Not like me I could say anything to him and he'd just sit there while I cried. Like after we came back from the airport from the boys leaving I was depressed and moody for hours but josh would just sit there and hold me while I moaned and apologised to him for being a pain then moaned some more. I was looking out the window and enjoying the sunlight that had once blinded me when josh started to speak

"erm Emily I don't really know how to say this but....." he scratched the back of his neck nervously and tried to continue nervously

"Erm...well" he got that far when my phone suddenly stared to ring from the living room where it was charging. It was Connor calling and as I didn't get to see him only talk to him I was not going to miss this. I went back to the kitchen

"Hey josh this is con do you mind?" I questioned he shook his head and put on a fake smile; he did that whenever I mentioned Connor. Hmmmm I don't think he has a grudge against him does he I mean he's done nothing wrong. I went into the living room and pressed accept and waited for it to connect.

"hey em" it felt so good to hear his voice again even though we spoke everyday his voice was still the same and I was always happy to hear his voice again. The one I fell in love with.

"Connor" I managed to breath

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Me and con finished on the phone after about an hour and it was now about half 9 we were all up and dressed but only me and josh were going to the park. We left and started to walk to his house which was only a few streets away as we had found out he lived quite close considering we only met by coincidence. We walked for 10 minutes before we got stopped by his street by a couple of boys. I assume they were friends of josh's as they waved and whistled a us. Wait. Whistled at us what the hell was that friendly and normal round here cuz I only take wolf whistling as a thing that happened between boyfriend and girlfriend. I was definitely not josh's girlfriend I was Connors and Connors only.

I gave josh a weird confused look and he just shrugged it off like it was nothing when it clearly was. It was to me I wasn't having the whole neighbourhood thinking I was going out with him and not Connor. I loved Connor full stop. What had josh been saying because it definitely hadn't come from my mouth. I would defiantly question him when we got in the house.

We got to his house with a few more looks and whistles. I really had enough and wanted to know what he had been saying to make those boys do that to us. We got in and he locked the door and turned to face me

"Alright?" he questioned how the hell could he just go alright after what had just happened I wanted to know and him just saying alright was just an insult and I wanted to know more

"Alright. Alright is that all you can say" I questioned with a slight anger and annoyance in my voice I wanted to know what was happening and I wanted to know now

"yes Emily are you alright" he raised his voice slightly and pushed past me to sit down knocking me into the wall. Why was he angry he wasn't the one being whistled at. And I wanted to know why

"no I am not josh why were those boys whistling at us and giving us funny looks, what have you said because I don't take that as friendly and I want to know why" I was basically shouting at him now I was so angry

"You want to know why this is why" he shouted, suddenly I felt a pair of un familiar lips smash against mine and attack mine aggressively. I was getting pushed against the wall but I was having none of it. I pushed him off with all my force and looked at him in disgust. I was too shocked to do anything. I stood there staring at him before he finally breathed in a cold un human voice

"Connor doesn't deserve you I do your mine not his and I don't see why your so blind to me I can make you happy not him, cant you see I'm the one you want" he lent in closer forcing Connors name out like it was a bad word that should never be said.

I just slapped him and ran, ran for my house, ran to anywhere, I just ran away from his house, away from everything. I never wanted to go back there again I never wanted to see him again. How could he do that, I loved Connor with all my heart how dare he say that I wanted him. I stopped running to catch my breath which was now short and shaky. I felt wet droplets pour from my face and onto my hands. I hadn't even realised I was crying until I had stopped and taken in my surroundings.

Great I was by brads house and was only a few streets away from the apartment. I walked the rest of the way collecting my thoughts as they whirred and whizzed around my head like bees collecting honey. The most prominent question being what was I going to do now, what was I going to say. Nothing. That what I was going to say nothing. Nothing at all. I would just forget this ever happened and carry on just as normal. But that was the problem at this precise moment I just wanted to curl up into a ball and talk to Connor. But I couldn't talk to Connor he was on tour and I wouldn't let him know that I had betrayed him; the next person I would go to is josh. The one person who was actually reachable was the one person who solely caused the pain and the one person I wanted to run away from.

What was I going to do ...

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