•Month One•
The past few days have been great. I've pushed the thought of dying out of my head. We all die eventually just, some sooner than others. I've urged Derek to so the same. We decided not to tell Ryan for now. I don't want him to be sad while I'm still here. Derek has been staying home with me while Ryan's at school. I told him not to stop working with the guys on account of me, but he insisted that he works better when he's around me. He said he's been working on a song. I've been trying to get him to let me hear it, but he always says its not finished.
I've been sitting on the couch while reading the latest Alternative Press magazine, then I feel Derek come up behind me and kiss me neck. A smile spread across my face.
"Happy anniversary. I love you."
"Awe. I love you too. Happy Anniversary." I turn my head and kiss him deeply.
Derek comes around the sit of the couch, he has his six string in his hand.
"I finished the song." He smiles. He positions his acoustic in the playing position and smiles at me. He starts to strum a slow melody.
🎶🎶Oh Florida, please be still tonight
Don't disturb this love of mine
Look how she's so serene
You've gotta help me out
And count the stars to form in lines
And find the words we'll sing in time
I want to keep her dreaming
It's my one wish, I won't forget this
I'm outdated, overrated
Morning seems so far way
So I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right
If luck is on my side tonight
My clumsy tongue will make it right
And wrists that touch
It isn't much, but it's enough
To form imaginary lines
Forget your scars, we'll forget mine
The hours change so fast
Oh God, please make this last
'Cause I'm outdated, overrated
Morning seems so far way
So I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right
Could get it right
You could crush me
Please don't crush me
'Cause baby I'm a dreamer for sure
And I won't let you down
I swear this time I mean it
And I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right🎶🎶
He finishes the song with a final strum and looks up at me. A single years falls from my eye. I could tell that he poured so much emotion into that song and it truly spoke to me in ways I didn't think we're possible.
"It's so beautiful, Derek." I lean in and kiss him softly. He puts the guitar down and pulls me onto his lap.
"It's hard to resist you." He breathes in-between our kisses.
•Month Three•
I leave the doctor's office not any happier than when I arrived. I had made Derek stay home instead of coming with me. He needed to stop worrying about me. He didn't need to, although I'd probably be doing the same thing if I were in his position.
I enjoyed to be alone sometimes. I had been spending the most time with my family and friends that I could. I think that Tyler took it the hardest out of everyone. He broke down and cried. I had never seen him cry before. I couldn't imagine how hard it would be for him to lose me. I mean he had Ella and their daughter, but we had been through so much together. We've been through so much, most of it we never wanted anyone to ever go through. It was horrible, especially our younger years.
I try my hardest to not think about how much time I have left, but the doctor visits bring my thoughts right back. And every time I see the people I love, I feel a pang in my chest because I know that sometime soon they'll be living without me.
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Author's Note:
I'm toying with ideas for this story in my mind right now, and I just don't know what to write.
Sorry if this sucks. Also sorry about skipping months. So yeah.
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