Classic

Classic 16

Ilhoon's POV

I still don't know if it is a mutual feelings but I should give it a try.

After her birthday, it is hard for me to tell what she truly feels. She built a huge wall that hides between her smiles.

It is one of the nights where we had a dinner together with noona's employees.

"Can I drive you home?"
"Right. I still have to go somewhere Areum. Let's just see each other at home. Byeeee."
"I guess I have no choice."

I lead her to my car.

"Oh I thought we will be going home with them."
"Nope. I told you I will drive you home."
"But..."

I never done anything grand for anyone but this subtle things that I'm doing feels like my heart is going to explode. Looking at Areum in my passenger seat is like a great combination for a long drive.

Maybe. Maybe this is the right time.

"I'll just walk from here someone may...... Ilhoon-ssi!"
"Its fine."
"Okay. Anyway thanks for driving me home."
"Areum-ssi?"
"Yes?"
"I don't know if you feel the same way."

Areum's expression started to change from being jolly to serious.

"Areum I like you..."
"You cannot."

She answered coldly. Am I being rejected?

"Why?"
"Ya! Stop it. Stop joking around."

"I'm not."
"I'm going inside its getting late. Take care."

I hold her hand and tried to stop her.

"Please listen to me first. I like you. I don't know when or how. But everything I have told you it is all sincere. I may not good with words, I may not be the sweetest person you have met, I might haven't done anything grand..."

"Ilhoon-ssi...
I'm sorry."

I watch her as she removes her hands from mine, as she walks out of my car bringing my whole heart with her. Before she can even close the door.

"Why?"

She just looks at me apologetically.

Since that night I blame everything from being an idol. I can't think of any reason. Or maybe it was just me?

I stop making songs since it is hard for me to create a good melody anymore.

I also stop going to their company.

I avoided all the topics about her.

I never tell anyone about what happened.
But I'm just glad we are all living separately.
Honestly, this is worse than before.

I've been looking for answers why. But I never find any.

'Donggeuni hyung calling...'

"Ilhoon! I will drop by your house before our sched. So we can be fetch together."
"Sched?"
"You don't know??"

Schedule? I tried to avoid opening our group chat these past few days.

Doorbell rangs. It must be Peniel hyung.

"Hyung wait..."
"Oh Ilhoon...... wait wtf?? What happened with you?"
"Nothing."
"Nothing but you look like a mess as if you were dump by...... wait."

I just put on whatever I reach on my closet.

"Ilhoon I have something to say."
"Hmm"
"Its about Areum and..."
"Can we not talk about her anymore?"
"Okay? Last... you were dump??"
"Ay hyung!!"
"Okay. Okay. Put your make up on you look like a zombie."

All members are in.

"Where are we going?"
"Seriously hyung? You really didn't read your messages?"
"We are going to see Minjoo noona and Areum."
"What?!!!"
"Very surprised?"
"Why? I thought we have a schedule."
"Aigoo. Ilhoon why don't you just back read our messages."

True enough. Noona accepted the proposal. BTOB is now part of the ambassador of my sister's company and today is our first meeting. I wanna punch myself. I look like a piece of trash right now. Ah seriously. They should give a heads up before going.

I don't wanna get off the van. I'm not in the mood since earlier.