Classic

Classic 32

Ilhoon's POV

After the meeting everyone agrees to chill in our studio well the hyungs invited Red Velvet to stay as well. This has been BTOB's routine we usually do this before officially start brain storming for our concept.

Chilling in BTOB includes drinking the difference is that we need to tone it down today since the girls are joining us.

Started from 1 bottle until I lost count. And of course, we were scolded by our managers but honestly they got used to it. They are just afraid since we drag the girls here.

After awhile everyone decided to go home already since it is getting late.

"Ilhoonie let's go home."
"You go ahead I'll just check something in my studio."
"Hurry up then. It's raining outside."

I just nodded at Hyunsik hyung and stay still here. I'll just rest for awhile since I've drank a lot and I need to sober up first but the door suddenly opens.

"I-i'm sorry. I'm just looking for my— Ahhhhhhh!"

Power outage and thunderstorm.
It must be a heavy rain outside.

"Just stay there I will come to you."

I can feel her whole body trembling because of the sudden thunder. I tried to hold her hands that covers her ears.

"Take a sit here."

When the thunder stops I slowly remove my hands from hers. Even though we are in the middle of darkness I can feel her eyes staring at me.

It's the eyes that I enjoy looking at.
The eyes that I've been longing to see.
Her eyes that communicates all her emotions.
Her eyes that I wouldn't be tired looking at.
It still sparkle even in darkness.

I don't know maybe it was because of the alcohol that gave me confidence to do things like this.

She kissed me like saying she missed me.

"I love you...

Ellie—"

Sun shines so bright today in my room. Did I forgot to close the curtains?? My head hurts and felt like something heavy leaning on me. As I've opened my eyes, I wasn't in my room. I'm still in the company.

"Oh! I'm sorry." She immediately fix herself.

Then we heard something is vibrating on the other side of the room.

"My phone." She reach it immediately.
"Oh! I'm here... Okay... Okay."
"Ah! Ilhoon I'm sorry. I have to go as well."
"Okay."

My head is spinning. I don't know how many bottles we drank last night for me to have this severe hangover.

I immediately go to my studio.

"Ilhoon-a you didn't go home?" One of our manager asked.
"You did?"
"Oh! You didn't go with Hyunsik?"

I don't know. I cant remember anything from last night. The disadvantage of low alcohol tolerance.

My phone suddenly buzz maybe it is from Areum. I was supposed to call her but suddenly memories from last night flash in my mind.

Power outage. A woman. Kiss... kiss?? I—
I can't seem to fully remember what happened last night. Or was it a dream? But I woke up beside her? So it was real? Was it??

Instead of working, still here I am staring blankly at my studio. If I can possibly bang my head in this wall I already did just to remember what exactly happened.

Aside from hangover, this gave me a real trouble. Maybe I should talk to Areum first it has been a while since we last met. I miss her already.

"Ilhoon is your song ready?"
"W-what?"
"For your collab. The management wants to hear it."
"Ah! Okay."

The whole week is already tiring the company has been rejecting all the songs I made. I've been stress out because of this and I don't want Areum to get dragged by this. My members also noticed how I became short tempered nowadays probably because of too much pressure that is why I avoid talking to her. And now this hangover.

As soon as I got home I fell asleep and just waken up by the sudden buzz of my phone.

'+812'
"Ilhoon I'm sorry about last time. Sorry I forgot to message you immediately. -J"

J? sungJae? No. J?? J? Last time?????

Ahhh! Joohyun noona!

Joohyun.

I tried to clear my thoughts. Probably another sleepless night. A lot of things running through my mind right now and I shouldn't be impulsive deciding things.

I try recalling things from last night and it was clear to me I am with noona last night but wasn't clear with me is my feelings. I am confused when I wasn't supposed to be.

'+Yook'
"Sungjae! Come to my studio."

Fortunately he doesn't have any schedule for today. He is the only one I can talk to about this and possibly understands me.

"Oh why?"
"I have something to tell you."
"Ohh"
"Tell me your honest opinion."
"Okay."
"Punch me if you want."
"O-okay?"
"Just..."
"Hyung just tell me already!"

"Sungjae... I think I'm going crazy."
"Me too. By just listening with you. What's with you today hyung?"
"I don't know."
"Wait why dont we call Eunkwang hyung?"
"No. Because its only you knew about this."
"W-wait. Is it about Joohyun noona?"

I nodded.

"I'm a jerk. Stupid. Areum doesn't deserve any of this. I don't deserve her."

As if on cue I receive a message from her. Right. I never have the chance to talk to her.

"Hyung what is happening?"
"I wake up suddenly I realized what if... what if...
All this time I am still in love with Joohyun noona. It is just that Areum was there to fill that gap. Honestly, the first day that I and Areum met is the same day noona and I broke up. I wouldn't deny Areum helps me to forget about her for awhile. She was there all those time and..."

"Did something happen last time we drink together?"

I received a punch from Sungjae. I deserve this. I knew I needed this one to ease all my guilt from Areum. She gave me nothing but pure happiness yet this is what I will give her in return.

"Hyung! What are you doing??"
"I realized I still love her, Joohyun noona."

It was a long silence between us.

"You place yourself in this situation and now either way you will hurt someone. You just need to be responsible for your decision. I am warning you, hyung. Nobody deserves to be treated like this. Make up your mind first before deciding. Don't jump just because one is convenient."