Classic

Classic 27

It has been a week since the last time I saw him. He's busy practicing for the concert and usually ended up at late hour. Just 5 days away for his solo concert.

"Aren't you going to sleep yet?"
"I'm just thinking..."
"About what?"
"Yujin can I handle this one?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean— being away with him when everything has just started. Look! We haven't even reach our 100th day. Everything is just starting to fall into place but it feels like it is being taken away... again."
"Aren't you just overthinking? Or you just became clingy with Ilhoon."
"What?"
"You know this is Ilhoon's fault."
"Why?"
"If you doesn't always stick together you probably not being clingy like this."
"That's not true."
"Really? Remember he even ask you to visit him in the army?"

I smiled as I remember how he tells me that I should frequently visit him in the army.

"Why? Phone is already allowed inside ha?"
"It is still different."
"Ahh I dont want."
"Why? You are probably not going to miss me?"
"No. It's just that— Are you sulking now?"
"Okay. Don't visit me. I'll just call you instead."
"Aigoo Ilhoon-ssi."

I can't help but to laugh. He really look like a kid while whining and sulking.

"Why are you laughing?"

I just kissed his cheek.

"Let's just stick with phone call. Okay?"

If you will ask me I really wanted to visit him but I don't want to set him up on any rumors. He is serving in the military most probably he cannot defend himself once news circulated everywhere and that is the last thing everyone wants to happen.

"Ayyyy"
"Are you thinking that I will kiss you again if you continue that?"

He nodded with his bright smile.

I faced him making my face closer...
and closer...
just a centimeter apart...

Then I put a chocolate icing from my cake on his lips.

"Ya!"

Yujin snap me out from my deep thoughts.

"Okay? Areum I kept on talking here and there you are ain't even listening with me."
"Sorry hehe"

Days passed by really fast that today is already the last day of his concert.

I was seated along with his fans far away from his family even though how many times he insisted to change my ticket.

"What is this?"
"My concert ticket."
"Okay! Will give this to Arin."
"That is yours."
"Ha? I will not accept this one."
"Why? Aren't you going to watch?"
"I am."
"Then why?"
"I will buy my own concert ticket with Yujin. That is why I should go home before 5pm."
"Why? This is already your ticket."
"No. I want to buy my own."
"I don't understand."
"Listen, Jung Ilhoon-ssi on that day I wouldn't be your girlfriend, I will be one of your melody."

Just what I have told him I admire him from a far where I was seated. Every fan would attest that Jung Ilhoon is seriously born to perform on stage and that is a fact that everyone knows.

Tonight he is BTOB Jung Ilhoon and I am his fan.

The night ended full of mixed emotions. Everyone noticed how he is trying so hard to stop his tears from falling. Knowing in a week, he will actively serve his country and no longer BTOB Jung Ilhoon for a moment.

'+1004 calling...'
"Where are you?"
"We are going to eat somewhere. Why?"
"Why didn't you go backstage? Our managers are looking for you."
"I told you I will be a fangirl today. Enjoy the rest of the day with your family. Send my regards to them."
"But..."
"It's okay we are already out of the venue. I'll message you later."
"Okay."

Yujin and I decided to eat nearby the concert venue. It is fun seeing moat of the people here are melody. You can hear everyone talking about their experience and stories. Different emotions filled the place.

Suddenly I felt something familiar. Something I am very much familiar of. Fear. Disappointment. Worries.

I am afraid that this people will be disappointed with Ilhoon because of me, of us.
I am afraid to be left behind again for the sake of everyone.
I am afraid to sacrifice my happiness over everything again.
I am afraid to give him up.
I am afraid of...

What ifs...

"Areum! Areum?"
"Ha?"
"Are you okay?"

I just nodded at Yujin.

What if... it happens again?