Classic

Classic 4

I'm back and today is the day I have promised Sam I will be coming and I can't back out anymore even though I wasn't expecting him to be there.

"Ellie!!!"

Loud music, noises from people talking welcomes me as soon as I entered the place. Tonight is Mike's day but I felt sorry since everyones attention is on me. Sharing stories left and right it was fun not until one comment turn everything to 360.

"Siraulo lang talaga si Paul."

It feels like they are trying so hard to avoid and never bring up the same topic I was avoiding.

A long dead silence. Feels like everyone wants to say something but trying to hold back because of me.

"Sorry Ellie."
"Sira kayo! okay na ako ang tagal na rin. Don't tell me di pa kayo nakamove on?"

Just trying to light up the mood. I have already... I think? I mean what was left is probably pain of leaving? Pain from the past. I don't know. Just pain.

And the night goes on with everyone's regrets.

It's getting late and I remember I still have papers to finish.

"Mike-y, Sam-my una na pala ako it's getting late na rin kasi."
"Oh do you want someone to drive you home?"
"No. I can manage. Salamat."
"You sure?"
"Yes thanks! See you next time ulit."

As I bid my good bye memories keep coming back but I'm not as miserable as before.

I've tried to calm myself first before turning on the engine but as soon as I hold the steering wheel vivid memories came back as if it happens yesterday. I close my eyes recalling those days.

Two years, it was nothing but butterflies and all those giddy stuff, that is how I describe my relationship with Paul. My first boyfriend and thinking he will also be my last but nuh. His friends (Mike&Sam and the gang) became also my friends. Funny is that even his own circle threatens him if he cheated on me thats how close they are with me.

Everyone who knows us foresee our relationship that will last long. So am I.

But not until his ex came back. I knew there was something off from the day she returns. During the first week I wasn't having any thoughts it and I don't want to put doubt on what we have established just because of someone from his past. But everything becomes a blurry.

Our distance keeps on growing. Never knew time could be that short. Casual messages feels like obligations. Yet I never doubted him.

On Mike's birthday. He told me he couldn't make it because of a sudden workload when we are supposed to go together. But I secretly drove myself going to Mike's party knowing him he wouldn't allow me to drive by myself especially at night. I didn't knew what I got in myself to disobey him this time. Maybe I also needed this to drive my thoughts away.

In the midst of the party, Mike tried contacting him. Asking his whereabouts which I find weird. Mike and Paul work in the same company, to be exact in the same department.

I tried to brush this off. Once again.

I excused myself going to the washroom when I heard someone says.

"Remember those times na hindi naman natin talaga nakakasama si Paul tuwing birthday ni Mike."

"Mahina ka talaga Mike mas gusto niya sumama kasi kay Bianca noon."

"Kung hindi sila ni Ellie ngayon iisipin ko si Bianca kasama niya."

Bianca? His ex girlfriend.