i lay afraid
of this non existent person
that somehow managed to get
both hands beside my head
with their hot air in my face
i can feel the
uncomfortable weight
of their body
that lays more on my chest
than anywhere else
they are making me sweat
my bones needing oil
and it's like
they poured soap in my eyes
because i can't open them
without burning
the exhaustion inside of me
a million things are running
through my mind
they tell me how wrong i am
how this is my fault
they are reminding me of things
i don't want to remember
so i shake my head
and say
"no, stop"
"please stop"
"i don't like where this is going"
but their piercing eyes
glare at me
like the dim glow
of my phone call
sleeping steadily beside of me
i cannot hang up
i cannot scream
because yes
the monster
they breath
they breath heavily
but tonight i just wanted to pretend
he's next to me
so i whisper
"please give me a break
for today
come back another day
please please
come when it's someone else
someone other than him"
but the monster doesn't go
they stay
they always stay
traveling in quiet moments
that aren't meant to be overthought
so i turn
and i lay on my side
i close my eyes
until i hear the click of an end
of someone who i wanted to stay
and i hear the monster
finally go away.
YOU ARE READING
the dawn of us
Poetrycover by duvetjae a series of written poems about love, trauma, and moving on. disclaimer: this books discusses many serious topics, read with caution.
