I am Reality

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I rushed to the specials and arrived at McKinley High school in about ten minutes, I came outside to my cousin's face red as fuck and with a black eye, yea he got his ass whooped. He claims he won but his face claimed other wise.
    We went about our day and went home. Exausted from school, I fell asleep wherever I lied. I woke up around 8:50 in the night to the frequent notification rings from my phone. I turned on my phone and came to find out I was put in a group chat. Half of the people I didn't know but my cousin was in the group so I did had a clear idea of who put me in there.
    The group chat was filled with roast and freaky text messages from boy to girl and girl to girl. I had my fair shot with this girl name Diblay, she was cute we had great chemistry she liked my poetry I liked hers we had the same future goals, it was great. We waited for about a week later to inbox each other personally, but when we did it was good. I mean me and her couldn't be the best couple ever.
    Now we like each other but I had trouble asking her out, I mean in my last relationship the girl asked me out so I didn't know how to properly ask a girl out. So I promised myself the next day that I would, felt pressured by my conscience but I did it. She said yes but no later then a week we broke up. I felt like I wasn't ready and I sugar coated to her that maybe the time it's just not right. She cried texting me how much she loved me but I doubted.
    Love to me is not a word that should be said just because you're in a relationship I believe love is to be said to a person you don't only admire but really feel passionately connected to, not someone you'll fall out of love for a week. I mean she rushed to tell her parents about me and talked about marriage. I told her I am not scared to get married but I don't like to think of marriage as a love bond, I believe some people rush into marriage to draw you into this capsule that they know you'll have hard time to get out of and I wasn't ready for that, but I was only 15 so common sense knocked me right in the head with a rock.
    Through the break up we exchange some words that weren't nice, mostly her because she was pissed at me but she did had a point on why would I get in a relationship when I wasn't ready. My answer was straight forward I just wanted to fuck. I mean like I said I'm 15 years old, my horny hormones we're sky rocketing, penis in vagina and penis in mouth is all I was to believe satisfied me. I was a horny teenager. She got back on the groupchat reporting our break up to everyone and exposing our personal messages. I said some freaky shit and it was not public friendly. All the females in the groupchat started to attack me,
    "why you break up with her" "you're a dick" "you're an asshole, boys aren't shit, "you creep" I stood my ground and kept straight. They started posting normal pictures that I took and just roasting me so I left the group chat.