I am Reality

10-10

She's dead, she's alive but she's dead, I mean her heart still beats but she feels no affection, no matter how nice or perfect the guy is she pushes him away. She says it's for her own good, I believed her. She's never happy, she cries all the time, and before I came into her life she was only a sponge of depression.
          I take it serious when someone wants to comit sucide, I feel my duty as a friend is to make sure I change it. She'd tell me about how her day went and how no one barely talks to her, because they claim she is weird and that she is different. I decided to take on the challenge on getting to know her, went to the public library with her every day, we talked about anything. She said she would like to go to this concert or event that was local. I said sure. Great time to connect.
          We fell off for a couple weeks due to school. I try get in contact with her, calling her phone and texting her by the time I got to her it was too late. Her dad texted me, "Katie committed sucide. I couldn't sleep for days just thinking to myself if I have checked on her she would've still be alive.
          I take the blame till this day. It will always hit me during times in my day like why did I left her alone why did I let her be when I knew how much she needed my help.