I am Reality

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You know, no matter how hard you try there is always this mean spirit that preys on your downfall, no matter how high you are in your life and no matter how low you believe you set yourself to be. Not everyone takes me seriously especially because of my dynamics, I'm so quick to distance my self from negativity but seems like a force of pull brings me back right to it. I'm too nice of a guy for some and much more of a dick to others. The reasons why I can't explain it, but I can tell you this, I have so much heart for people who hurt me than people who want to be around me. maybe I'm just trying to impress those who are not accepting of me.

There is a truth to every lie, I mean I remember in my junior year of high school falling in love once again after five years of post break- up. I did not fall for the beauty, nor I have fell for her body, I fell for her need, and I could just sense I was brought up to her for purpose. you know the saying everyone in your life comes in and out for a purpose. well Asia was my breakthrough, she was also an angel who I believed was sent down to help me understand I'm not bad at all. You see as junior year started I was set to sit next to her by the teacher's order. "assigned seat." I took a glimpse her for her, I wasn't glorified at all, in fact before I even got to know her I already had others perspective of her in my mind.

Such as she is annoying or she acts like a child or even that she is selfish but I am someone who don't listen to anyone without seeing it myself. She spoke to me first asking me a question about an assignment we were given. I nodded no because I had no idea what I was doing either. but that first questions sparked our friendship deeper and deeper throughout the year. As I've gotten close to her my feelings got deeper and deeper that I started to fall in love with her. I can confidently say she wasn't feeling me the way I felt her. I looked at this girl and my heart literally tinkled but I felt like there were needles just stabbing me in the heart and I couldn't stop it. so I distanced my self away from her but my love for her still stands today till the day I die. Love can't be forced but it definitely cant be forgotten