I am Reality

Chapter Three

Sex is good, it feels good, it's made to arouse both genders, some people are afraid of having sex because they can catch HIV, some people are afraid of getting pregnant, some don't want to be seen naked, and some are just scared of the transaction. From men I expect highly but from a woman it's hard to find a very horny or aroused female. Most of them are found in internet junks.
          You know. " are you seriously watching porn by yourself"  yea alot of you know that line because you've watched porn. I was only in the sixth grade. My first time watching porn was like an angel setting it's shore beneath my penis, I was unsure of what I was doing but I knew it felt good. I was introduced to porn by a friend. A very horny friends. So horny this dude ripped his pants in half because he was aroused so much by the females in our class.
          He was like bro have you ever watched porn. I was like. "Porn?" Yes bruh sex. "No. I responded. I remember we were on the bus, 2nd graders right in front of us, at the time we had no buss aid, even then he told me to put this headphones one and all I heard was moaning sound. All of the sudden something from pants started to pick up itself, it felt alive like it was waking up. When I got home. I went in the bathroom and started to watch it with my headphones, all I saw was a penis and a vagina going in and out each other. And the little man woke up again. In the video the female was moaning the male was groaning, it felt like a building relationship. And then at the end of each video something white came out of the penis and I wondered what is it.
          So I took my mom's phone and searched "what is the white thing that comes out the penis". And in bold letter I see "CUM". So i went back to my friend the next day, yo how do u get cum out your penis." He said u got to beat your meat." I looked at him confused as fuck." Like why would you beat a meat, what does beating a meat has anything to do with getting something white out of your penis. He said. "No get a motion rub it on your and and penis and just message it back and forth but you gotta be watching porn when you do that. So I went home that day got into the bathroom, head phones on pants down shower on and sink faucets on. I put on the the porn video, I remember the site. "pornhub". Grabbed the lotion out of the cabnits and started "beating my meat" halve way into the video a liquid gel like very sticky and almost like a saliva came out of my penis.
          So I'm like what is this, took one of my fingers touched it, decided to give it a taste and it was salty as fuck." Nasty. So I continued and by the end of the video my penis kept in larging, and I felt this intense feeling so good and then the cum shoots out of my penis like a waterfall, and it was alot, like it kept pumping out, for at least 20 seconds. Felt so good.
          Now about a minute later I felt very sad, I didn't why, I just felt sad, I felt to myself what did I just do that. I felt regretting and very depresed. It even made me fell sleepy. I go back to school the next day so my friend. Does this beating your meat comes with a side affect "I said. He said yes you feel sad and depressed and regretting. I asked why he said he don't know. I tested the next day and felt the same way. So I stopped beating my meat. I started reading online the causes of beating your meat too much, and it was bad, depression, self centered, feel like you are not being loved.