Friends... Plus a little extra (Lams)

Scared

Mentions of abuse and all that Jazz

Alexander woke up holding John. It took him a second to remember the events, smiling to himself.

"I need you so bad. So, so bad..." John has whispered to Alexander.

Of course, Alex did feel slightly guilty for helping John cheat but he wanted John back. And he knew Charles was no good in the first place.

He had to be careful with him, however, as John would flinch if a bruise was touched. It was hard to avoid them all.

There were so, so many.

He moved gently, checking his phone.

He had several text from Lafayette.

{Are you with John?}

{Is he okay?}

{Why aren't you answering?}

{are you two having the sex?}

{oh my god! Alexandre!}

Alexander laughed quietly at the text, quieting himself when John stirred, not wanting to wake him.

{Yes, I'm with John. Don't worry. And he wanted to have sex, it wasn't just me. =)}

John began to wake up, causing Alex to set his phone down and give John his full attention.

John sat up and looked at Alexander.

His eyes widened before memories of the night before started to flood back.

"Shit-" John mumbled, feeling terrible now.

Charles has cheated on him several times but he still felt terrible doing it to him.

Alexander sat up and put his arm around John. "What's wrong, Jack?" He whispered, gently touching his bare hip.

John just shook his head, putting his face in his hands. "I can't believe I cheated on him..." he muttered, feeling horrible about it.

Alexander sighed. "It's okay... it's okay..." he whispered to him gently.

John shook his head. "No it isn't! I did the same thing that made us break up..." he muttered, removing his hands from his face and hugging his knees.

Alexander shook his head. "John, last night you told me that Charles cheats on you all of the time. You said you needed me. You did nothing wrong." He said, kissing John's cheek.

Alexander touched a bruise on John's hip by accident, causing him to flinch.

"Oh-shit... sorry..." Alexander mumbled, looking down.

"John... does Charles hurt you?" He asked after a few moments of silence.

John was silent, looking down at his bedsheets.

"Only when I make him mad... or when he's drunk. B-But it's just because he loves me... he's a good man, Alex... I swear..." he spoke after a few minutes of silence.

Alexander shook his head and brought John's eyes to meet his own.

"If He was a good man, if he loved you, he wouldn't hurt you." He whispered. "John, I love you... I have for a while and I've never even had a thought of laying a hand on you or changing you in any way. He doesn't. And I know that must hurt to hear but it's true." He told, just not wanting John to keep hurting himself for this horrid man.

John just looked down, leaning onto Alexander. "But if I try to leave, he may hurt me..." he whispered almost silently.

Alexander shook his head, kissing John's head a few times. "I won't let him." He mumbled.

John just shrugged falling silent.

He spoke after a while. "Do you really still love me?" He asked gently.

Alexander nodded immediately. "Yes- so, so much, John."

John nodded a bit and went quiet again.

"You've got to end it with him..." Alexander said gently.

John shook his head. "It isn't that easy..." he whispered.

Alexander nodded, kissing John's head. "I know... but you really need to... the way he treats you isn't okay... John— you're so small now.." he mumbled.

John started to cry and shook his head. "I-I can't..."

Alexander sighed. "Please... I know you can..." he begged

John shook his head. "I'm scared he's gonna hurt me!" He sobbed.

Alexander turned John so he was facing him. He put his hand on his face and wiped his tears with his thumb.

"Hey, hey... I'm not gonna let him hurt you anymore, okay? He's not going to lay another hand on you." He promised.

John hesitated to nod, laying his head on Alexander's chest.

Alexander lied down, holding John in his arms.

"Shh, I've got you... I've got you..."