This is the continuation of the last chapter. OS: Ashes by Claire Guerreso. Enjoy!
It's the night before the trial, Seokjin was overwhelmed with everything. He's still undecided if he's going or not. Namjoon will be there. He want to witness everything. But Seokjin is still thinking. The idea of attending the trial is not sitting on him that good. He doesn't want to see other people discussing what happened to him and Jae Hwan. He felt bare and vulnerable. He doesn't like it.
But there's a part of him that is convincing him to be brave and face his ex-lover again. It tells him that he will gain all the benefit on meeting the man that gave him his biggest nightmare.
"What are you thinking?" Namjoon asked. They are on their bed, trying to relax as it's the end of their day.
"I'm not sure if I am going or not." The younger tightened his hold to his husband. He know that it is stressful for him. "Anything that can make you feel safe love. I will support you." He sighed.
"Yeah. I don't actually want to see him but I feel like I need to." he said.
" Maybe ." The younger shortly commented. "What you mean maybe ?" The elder asked curiously . " Maybe you need to see him to finally set yourself free." That was unexpected . Thought by Seokjin. But he realize that there is nothing usual on Namjoon's mind.
"Meeting him can make you realize things love. I'm hoping that when you two met, you realize that what happened to you is not something that you deserve because of what you truly are . That it happened because you're on the wrong place on a wrong time. And I am hoping that after you met him again, you will finally take away his power over you. That you finally set yourself free with that nightmare. I want you to have your life back without you being scared of your past. You deserve that Seokjin. You deserve every bit of freedom so you can have genuine happiness again."
The elder was speechless. That made his heart melt again. 'How do I deserve to have him?' A thought that always ran to his mind. Minutes and there's still no answers came out on Seokjin's.
He move out of Namjoon's hold. The younger is clueless why. Being worried that his husband is not feeling well again.
One sudden move and Namjoon froze. Now, their forehead were touching and lips almost touching. Such intimate gesture from his husband. It makes his heart flutter. "I love you Joonie. Thank you so much for staying with me and for loving me."
"You're very much welcome my love."
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