Unwanted

21

There is no sleep. There is no eating. It's all just pain. My eyes don't even have to close for me to get flashes of his face. No amount of showers can take his smell from my skin. I've peeled my skin so many fucking times. Nothing works.

I've even tried to shift, just to let go. Living as a beast would be better then this. Only she won't let me. Mindless savages my ass. It's like she knows I want Kierra to disappear.

All I can seem to do is cry.

Weakness.

Mom would be so disappointed.

Blackfoot is outside my door. Everyday for the last ten days he comes and stands there. I can always hear a sob before he stomps out the back door and shifts.

"Kiki" I guess he finally found the courage to come and talk. Or maybe I'm just becoming a bitter bitch because I have no words.

" Baby girl you need to come out of this room. You need to eat." Still I nothing to say. I have nothing left. No fight. Nothing. That thought just leads to more tears.

Tears that make my already sore body shake.

"Oh sweet baby, cry if you need to. Fight or hell even Throw shit. I don't care just please leaves this room."

"I can't please don't make me please." This room is safe. There is only one door the windows are locked tight. My safe haven.

"Kiki we are all here for you. Mikel is hurting so much just from seeing you like this."

.Hatred.

"Fuck him. I don't give a damn about how he is feeling! If I never see him again it would be too soon. Do you understand me Blackfoot?"

Nothing is said after that. Just Blackfoot staring at me with wide eyes.

The beast and me are in complete agreement. Mikel is no longer our brother. He could have gotten to me in time before I was.. before Liam....Raped me. He could have had both packs to that cave. Then the families of those poor girls would have been able to at the very least bury their children. Instead there is nothing but ashes that the wind carried away as soon as the fire was put out.

"Kiki."

"You can come in Alex." I've heard him begging his mom to let him up here. Today however he just came on up. Determination in his steps.

" I know your not sick, like mom and dad said, but I do know that you are hurting. I can feel it. I might not be able to see you but I do hear you, and I want you to be happy again so here I am!"

I can't help but laugh. I am so thankful that he doesn't know. That I don't have to see the the look of pity that comes with knowing exactly what Liam took.

"Your laughing! See I should have been up here ages ago. Adults think they know everything when really it's us kids."

"You have a point Alex. Want to play a game or something?"

Two hours Lexi comes to get Alex ready for diner where that was promised Mikel would not be at.

So here we are Lexi ,Alex, Blackfoot and the grand parents sitting around the table. it's clear that the adults as Alex has said are walking on eggshells making sure not to spook the wounded. Which pisses me off.

"So we were thinking about taking a little trip. A family vacation, maybe to the beach or skiing. You never seen snow right Kiki?"

Bless Grandma Diana for trying to lighten the mood.

"No I haven't grandma." I give her the best smile I'm currently capable of, and by judging the way her eyes go soft. I know she can tell it's forced.

Before she can call 'bull shit' The front door creaks. My beast stirs.

"He needs to leave!"

"KIki your out of your room." Mikel stands in the kitchen entrance.

He has balls even trying to speak to me. I HATE him!

I make a show of sniffing the air and curling my lip in discussed.

" You miss a lot of things while you are with Lisa. I don't know why you act so surprised."

"I wasn't just with her. Can we talk please?" He really thinks that the sad puppy dog look is going to work on me then he is in for a rude awakening.

"No. I don't think we need to. You picked a piece of ass over your own sister. All that shit about always protecting one another, Gemini twins all blew out the window when you thought your pre-mate pussy was going to leave your sorry ass!" I roar. Whatever it is that allows my wolf to join me while in human form is working full force right now.

A sharp intake of breath and every head in the room including Alex turns to the reason my brother left me hung out to dry.

Lisa standing with big fat tears in her eyes only seems to piss us up more.

"What the fuck are you even doing in this house? Last I checked you are human or witch but damn sure not a shifter! haven't you done enough? Or have you come to help this pathetic boy keep practicing for when his real future comes?"
"Kierra!"

"Kiki"
Comes from the lips of everyone in this fucking house.