Unwanted

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"Whos voice is in my head?" 

That simple question has both my uncles staring at me wide eyes and mouths open.  Who knew that the way to take out a Alpha and beta born was to just ask a question. 

Uncle Dylan seems to gather himself faster than uncle Levi. " I'm not sure I understand Kiki.." 

" My first shift was the car accident and before I passed out I heard shift. I thought it was my wolf. Even after Mikel told me that the wolf couldn't speak, but I still hear it from time to time, so I figured it was her. That maybe since I'm a female shifter maybe the rules that applied to males didn't to me ya know? However when I.. She was attacking Mikel the voice told her to stop and she did, and she shifted back only when the voice said to do so." 

I stop waiting for a explanation but both men seen to be as dumbfounded as I am. 

" So whos voice is it?'

"I.. Kiki I'm not sure to be honest with you. I'll have to speak to our elders. I promise we will figure this out. Just give me some time. Dylan you gather the elders in the great hall. Kiki you call your father and then go to Mikel. Gemini twins heal faster with their twins beside them." 

I deflate a little at Levi's words. He wouldn't have to heal if the bitch would have listen to me in the first damn place.   

Before I could make the call to Blackfoot I had to wash Mikel's blood off with scalding hot water.  the shower felt like life but grabbing my cell phone felt like death was a few rings away.

"Hello."

"Hey it's me."

Blackfoot laughs. " I know who it is Kiki even someone my age knows how to read the caller I.d." When I don't respond Blackfoot turns on his Beta mode. " What's wrong are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I shifted into my wolf this morning." 

" That's great baby girl! I know how much you missed running." Hearing the thoughtfulness of Blackfoot has me smiling. It's a sad smile, but still him being proud and happy for me makes my chest expand.

"Blackfoot I need for you to hear me out before you start you ranting. Okay?"

I wait a beat. I can hear him resituating himself. Bracing himself for the impact that is sure to come. 

" Tell me." 

Knowing it's best to just rip the band aid off.

" My beast attacked Mikel. She wouldn't stop, she wanted him dead. He wouldn't fight back. No matter what she came at him with he just let her do it. I stopped before she could make his heart stop. I haven't seen him yet. Levi thought I should call you before I went to Mikel's side to help him heal. Of course I understand if you don't want me near him. I will respect your choice. You have to know that I am so fucking sorry Dad. I don't want Mikel hurt but I just couldn't get control of the beast before she did real damage. I love him. I never wanted to physically hurt him I swear.  

I have no clue how I managed to not become a blubbering mess while explaining what I had done to Mikel, but I was able to hold my voice strong. 

"I will be there by morning. Kierra?"

"Yes." 

" The three of us. You, me and Mikel will be sitting down and having a long overdue conversation. You hear me?"

"Yes sir." I can't help it when my spine bends and head hangs. 

"Aso I like you calling me Dad instead of Blackfoot. I'll see you in a few hours. Get your ass to your brother's side. I love you."

Blackfoot hangs up before I can reply. I didn't even notice I called him Dad, and I can't make myself feel guilty for betraying my other Dad. 

I know it my heart of hearts that he would be proud of me for making my own decision about Blackfoot. Coming to my own conclusion instead of the one Mom allowed my little mind come to. 

The Gemini pack has a hospital on their pack lands. A freaking hospital! How big is their pack?  I'll have to ask Levi or Dylan when I see them. I know they are the original shifter pack but damn.

Standing just outside Mikel's room waiting for the pack doctor to come and give me a update. Even I know that I'm procrastinating. I don't want to see what I did to him. I can't look into his eyes right now. 

"Kierra?" A soft feminine voice asks. Startling me out of my woe is me monologue.

The short curvy ebony colored woman who is wearing a white lab coat. Indicating that she is a pack doctor. 

" Are you Kierra Blackfoot?"

"Y. Yes." I'm still not use to the last name but all things considered that is the least of our worries. 

"Is my brother okay?" I inhale and hold. I know Dylan said he was stable but stable does not mean that he is in fact okay.

"Mikel is stable. He is a bit in and out right now. We had to pump him full of a lot of drugs. His system is burning through them faster then what we are use to. However considering you are twins and both have wolves I'm going to make a educated guess and say that he just needs his sister." She gives me what I'm sure is her best ' doctor smile' but when she sees that I still have a unimpressed face he smile falters a bit. " All he needs is you and some rest. A lot of rest. Please have the nurse page me if the two of you need anything." 

Mikel looks like I feel. His shoulder is tapped up. The gashes on his stomach already have made the gauze on them bright red, and I can not even stomach looking to his throat. I know the beast gave extra attention to that area. 

"Kiki" Mikel's soft voice breaks  the very little hold I had on my emotions.  

"Please don't cry. I hate it when you do. Please"

"Mikel I am so so sorry. I couldn't control her. Please forgive me, but if you don't I'll understand."

" There is nothing to forgive. You beast felt wronged by me, and she was. I fucked up little sister. My mistake caused you a great deal of pain. She was just trying to right a wrong in the only way they know how. A fight."

" Why didn't you fight back? If you had maybe the damage wouldn't have been so bad?"

" Because I deserved every single bit of what she gave. In fact I'm pretty sure she took it easy on me."

" Mikel are you out of your ever loving mind? She was going to kill you! And you think is was just?" He's nuts. The beast must have knocked a few screws loose. That's the only explanation I can think of for his lack of care for his life. 

Mikel and I spend hours just talking. Telling stories of our younger years. Just getting to know each other better. It's a hard pill to swallow knowing that we are twins but not knowing much of anything about one another. I know why Mom did what she did, and I can even respect it in a certain way. That still doesn't stop that rage I feel of not knowing this family while growing up.

" Hey you two. Mikel how are you feeling?" Uncle Dylan ask's.  He showered. No sign that he had to rush a dying Mikel here.

" Kiki the elders and Levi would like to speak with you. They have a idea about the voice."