Unwanted

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The trees are a blur as I zip past them. Wind in my fur with the feeling of complete and utter freedom. No sibling problems. No mate issues. Just FREE!  This is all I wanted. There is problems when your wild besides when and where you will get your next meal. The forest will always provide us with what we need. Should another wild come to try and hurt us my beast will do her thing. 

Dog eat dog world. Only the strongest survive. 

Begging my beast to push herself faster. Knowing this is exactly what WE needed to find a balance in our otherwise fucked up world. 

"That's it girl. Your free!"  God how I've missed this. 

Sure this whole shifter stuff  in new to me but I can't remember a time when I felt this light. 

Settling down by a stream so she can wet her tongue after that amazing run. A giggle in the distance makes her hackles rise. 

"Sissy! Where have you been? I've been waiting for ages for you to come for me sissy!" The shift is instant. 

"D.. Dylan? Is that really you? "

His giggle is like music to my ears. Rushing over to my little brother. Engulfing him in the biggest bear hug known to man.

" Kiki your naked!" With tears streaming down  my face while laughing.

"Kierra Lynn Blackfoot put some cloths on girl!" 

Frozen at the sounds of the voice. Her voice.

"Mom"   She hugs me with as much effort as I did Alex. There is nothing better than a mother's hug!

"Hey baby girl. I've missed you. Come on put on your cloths we a lot to talk about." Mom says while wiping my tear stained face.  I can't help but feel I've disappointed her by crying.

Weak 

Grabbing the cloths that mom has in her hand. Dressing faster then I ever have. Seriously should check a record book for the time. 

"Where's Dad?" 

"He's not with us. He was never meant to be apart of the moon baby."

"I don't understand. What are you talking about mom? Where have you been? They said you were dead. Oh and I met my father the other one. Let's not forget your other kid. How could you do that mom?" 

Once I start I can't stop. So many questions along with  accusations. All things that have been floating in my mind since Blackfoot walked through  my hospital door.

" I know sweetie. Come sit we have to talk." Mom always one to stay calm no matter the situation she is in. Somethings never chance. I should take comfort in that but just can't seem to bring myself to relax.

We sit in what looks like the exact same flower field Blackfoot had planted for me. Or my stone really. Dylan is running around the open space. He seems to be having the time of his life. 

" I know you have questions. To be honest I had  wished that we would never have to have this conversation. So I'll explain and I hope that you don't hate me but if you do I have no one to blame but myself."

Hate her? Sure I'm pissed but I would never be able to hate her. She's my mom!

" I don't even know where to start!"

"The beginning." 

She laughs at my automatic response.

 " I was born to the Gemini pack. It's the same place the very first shifter was born countless moons ago. My father was the Alpha of our pack. He, he wasn't a very nice man to woman Kiki. Even his own kin. My brothers  would always try and protect me from my fathers heavy hands of 'love' as he called it. No matter what I would do he would  always find something wrong. I didn't realize when I was younger but as I grew older I figured out he was beating me into submission.  My father like many Alpha's had control issues. Only his idea of ruling with a iron fist was to actually use his fist. By the time I met your father I was over pack life and wolves. I figured that all alphas used my fathers methods. Devin promised his pack wasn't like mine but I refused to hear it. I even told him to leave me go to a potential, but the stubborn oaf  said that he was mine just as I was his and he would leave his pack behind and take me away from all other wolves."  

Tears are falling from my mothers eyes. Something I can promise you I have never in my life witnessed.

"  I loved him from the moment our eyes connected. He completed me when I didn't even know I wasn't whole!  So of course I agreed to leave with him. My father however refused to let me go. Unknown to me he already promised his Beta that his son could mate with me. I was a potential for his twins. So when my dad caught me sneaking out to meet your father to set up a plan, he smelled I was pregnant even before I knew it. He lost it. Screaming that I was a whore and that now he would have to beat the bastard out of me before I could be claimed as a Beta's female. My older brother Levi rushed in before his threat could be carried out, and BELIEVE me he would have made sure I was no longer pregnant.  Levi fought tooth and claw with our father I tried to help but I have no  wolf . When he latched onto Levi's neck my little brother  Dylan came. He was only fourteen but he had it worse then me so when he seen our father and brother he lost it. His wolf took control and ended our father. Dylan told me to run and not look back said he would handle Levi and give me and Devin enough time to get as far away from the Gemini's as possible.

So that's exactly what I did. Your father and found out I was pregnant with twis. One of each. we were over the moon! I was finally happy away from the wolves and their politics. Just me and Devin waiting to add our own pups to our world. Then your Grandfather Kane got hurt and no one thought he was going to make it. Of course I had to force your father to go home to help his mother. What was suppose to be only a few days turned into weeks. 

Every time he would call I could hear how happy he was to be back on his lands with his family.  I know he was happy with just me but making his wolf suffer with not having a pack was something that I just could not do. I loved him too much to do that. I knew that I would never be able to do pack life again. Plus I could tell he was getting ready to beg me to come to him, and even though my whole being would be screaming no I would have went just to make your father happy.

That's how mates work. Once you mate you live to make the other happy. So I came up with a plan. A friend of mine was working at the hospital where I would give birth to the two of you. She was a non breeder from some pack we met at my O.b's office. I called her begged her to help me fake mine and my daughters death. She came from a pack like mine so she understood why I couldn't let my daughter grow up in pack life. I knew Devin would be devastated but I also knew that having Mikel to care for that he would make sure he didn't go wild so his didn'y grow up alone. 

I knew you were a breeder so I made sure to stay away from packs and wolves. Of course I failed you when it came to Liam but his father promised me that they would keep us hidden. Said that they weren't like all the other packs. I'm pissed that it took me dying to find out just how true that was! 

I failed you as a mother in retrospect if I wouldn't have let my fear cloud my judgement you would have grew up with a pack. I swear I didn't know you had a wolf! It was never heard of, but I understand now baby girl.

He's coming for you and when he finds you, you'll be as happy as I was with my mate. Just remember I love you Dylan loves you and Devin and Mikel love you just as much as we did. 

Goodbye my sweet Kiki"

"Bye sissy!"