Unwanted

24

It's been four days since I told my brother dearest about his bestie  Ash and his loving Lisa. The crushed look on his face gave me  some satisfaction and I'm not going to lie it scared me. Who the hell am I becoming? 

The beast however? She loves every hurt look Mikel makes. Every wine his beast makes calling out to his sister wolf. Her hate holds no bounds. I even started having these dreams of tearing out his throat, and I suspect they are not my dreams. 

Which is exactly why I'm happy school has started back up. Obviously I'm not starting the new school yet. Blackfoot says I can maybe do a semester or two online. Or until I'm ready. So that just leaves me and Lexi at the house. Thankfully she doesn't hover over me like I'm sick. 

"Hey hon do happen to have any tampons I can barrow until I hit the store?" 

" Yeah under the sink."

It takes a good five minutes for my heart to stop. Running to my phone to check my calendar. 

FUCK!

"Hey Lexi I." Cold sweat starts to break out on my brow. "I'm going to take a walk. I might end up around the falls."

"No worries take your phone so your father can call if needed!"

Grabbing my phone. Going to the only person that can help me. Alpha Cross. It's not like I can I can go to Lunar's doctor, I'm pretty sure she knows how I've been treating her daughter. 

Can I even get pregnant by someone that's not my mate or potential? It's only been fourteens days three hours and thirty three minutes since Liam first took what he wanted. I'm only six days late and it's probably just stress from everything.  

If there is a God it's only stress. 

I get to the falls and I have no clue about where Alpha Cross lives or exactly how far in do their pack houses appear. Stealing my nerves I continue to walk the same way Jay disappeared the first time I met him.

That seems like a life time ago.

What if I am pregnant? What will I do?  I can't have his  baby. God I know it wouldn't be it's fault but I just wouldn't be able to do it.

Praise the woman that can but I already know that's not me. 

Can shifters even get abortions? 

Thankfully I get to the village before I can have a full blown panic attack. 

"Kiki?"

"Alpha Cross can I speak to you please." A quick look around I see wolves and breeders all stealing glances at me. " In privet please."

Cross users me forward to a pretty large home. Has to be a good three story house. However I can't really focus on the details while I have a major shit storm going on inside my head. We head straight for his office Alpha Cross closes the door behind us.

"The room is sound proof so no worries about listening ears."  

He must have read my mind. Or maybe the look of dread has him knowing it's serious. 

"You said if I ever needed anything all I had to do was ask."

"Yes."

"And you would keep it between us right? No going off to Blackfoot or Alpha Marcus. Not even Jay right?"

Looking right into Alpha Cross's eyes. I know it's a disrespectful thing, but right now that's the last thing I'm worried about.

" As long as you are safe then whatever you need stays in this room."

Breathing a calming breath. Letting my shoulders relax a bit.

"I need your pack doctor for a."  Fuck just rip the damn band aid off Kiki. Come on grow a pair. "For a pregnancy test."

His sharp intake of breath is the only reason I know that Fred has heard me. Looking at his face makes me panic. 

Can a wolf have a stroke? 

I really need to learn this shit. I'm the worst  fucking shifter alive!

After Cross's shock wore off he finally asked me.. well he asked me 'huh' and if I wasn't shitting my pants I would have laughed.

"I'm late and yes I know it's early but I figured a blood test could tell. I don't even know if I can get pregnant by someone that wasn't intended for me, but if what Liam said was true about his family curse then I have to make sure that I'm not. I also need to know if it's possible for a shifter or er me to be able to actually get a abortion. Or if I would have to drink wolfs bane or something. I don't Alpha Cross but I'm freaking the fuck out over here!"

Yes by the end of my semi melt down I'm yet again crying. Fuck can I catch a break please!

" Wow okay Kiki, calm down. Breath. that's it. In through your nose out through your mouth. Okay now drink some water."

Fred allows me the time to get my shit together. Then picks up his phone asking for Dr. Dray to  come to his office with their medical bag.

" The doc is on his way. This will stay between us and in this office. I don't know the answers to all you question just yet, but how about we take this one step at a time. Okay?"

"Thank you."

A few minutes later A short but buff man comes in. Medical bag in hand.

" James this is Kiki. Kierra this is James Dray. He's our pack doctor as well as one of us. So should we need information moving forward he'll be able to help." 

I give a quick wave to the Doc and a nod to Fred. 

" Now James what you will be doing here will stay here, Understood?" No mistaking the Alpha in Fred Cross right now. 

"Yes Alpha." The good Doctor waste no time in agreeing with his Alpha.

" How early can you detect a pregnancy through a blood test?" 

Thank God Fred is running this show. I seem to have lost my voice.

" hCG levels can be picked up pretty early. How late are you Kiki?"  Straight foward question but I can see the sadness that washes over him. He knows what happen. Is there anyone that doesn't?

" Six days." Hard voice answers. I will not show how weak I really am. Even though they all know it now.

"I'll be able to find out then. I can drawl it here and have the results in a hour or two." 

"That works. Thank you Dr. Dray." 

With quick work my blood is drawn no need  for a band aid thanks to super healing. The doc is out the door with his promise of returning as soon as he knows. Leaving me with Alpha Cross.

" I just want to thank you again Alpha Cross."

" Let me stop you right there I told you Ill always help when I can and please for the love of the moon call me Fred! You are not my pack no need for formalities Kiki."

" You got it Fred." Even a giggle escapes me.